The Ego

My Ego, Oil on canvas, By Beki

9.9.20

Could it be that we have been making the ego the villain in our ongoing drama of this story of separation with the Soul as the hero? If we would only remember the truth of who we really are, the Soul, then we could dissolve the ego like the bad witch in the Wizard of Oz. I know that we are doing our best with words to understand, contemplate, and make sense of this reality that we are navigating. The many philosophers, intellectuals, scientists, shamans, religious scholars, artists etc. strive to offer their own versions of what all this Life could be about. 

But could it be that all the versions are a story, a metaphor, an analogy to describe the indescribable. Even science, the purveyor of irrefutable provable reality, is in truth an art, a philosophy that keeps evolving and producing the most beautiful new discoveries and inventions. If only we could appreciate the creativity and innovation that emerges from these deep thinkers without needing to make it right to justify its value, perhaps we could make space for the validity of all. 

So I would like to tell a new story about the ego. The Ego feels very unappreciated these days, particularity within the spiritual arena that speaks about burning, dissolving, and letting the ego die. Of course we have used the term loosely as a way to describe people who are ‘full of themselves’, arrogant, and braggadocios as having a particularity big ego. It is the ‘unspiritual’ part of the self and tends to be considered a hinderance for liberation. It is pretty much always used as a derogatory term and therefore has fallen into the role of villain. 

However I would like to consider the idea that the Ego is the human self, the part of our consciousness that we merge with when our Soul enters the physical body. The Ego understands that it must work with the Soul to show It how to navigate the physical dimension of polarity, gravity, and limitation. This is not the domain of the Soul, who is by nature unlimited, eternal, and infinite. Yet, our Souls choose to be limited within these parameters for a very good reason or we would not be here. This physical world is BEAUTIFUL and full of potential and possibility. It allows for the most sensuous and delicious experiences that require the container that these limitations offer. Limitations such as: a mortal, physical body that can feel pain and pleasure and everything else; the inability to walk through walls so that you can touch them and feel the boundary between you and another; otherness, so that you can see, touch, hug, dance, kiss, make love with a separate being. Don’t even let me get started with the intoxication of the physical senses! 

I think we can all agree that there are many assets to embodying a human being. Yet, we can all see the limitations and the heartache that it causes are equal to the ecstasy. It seems as though we have become so identified with the physical human self that we have forgotten our divine nature that knows our magnificence beyond the limitations of this dimension. We had forgotten that this was a choice and that we are more than this identity, body and this life. In this forgetting of this essential essence of our Being, we became overly identified with the Ego aspect of our being and without the conscious partner of the Soul driving the ship, our Egos jumped into the drivers seat to save the day. 

Whose fault was it, when the Soul seemed to disappear, fall asleep or get knocked unconscious? I think it is the nature of the Ego, that lives from separation consciousness, to ask that question and to argue and justify. Without the Soul present to infuse the frequency of Divine Love this story of separation takes over and we begin the slippery slope down this hellish hole of life without the Soul. 

Yet, the great awakening that we have been dreaming of is upon us. It is the awakening to the essence of the Soul, not just in ourself, but in all Life. ALL of it. At the beginning of this awakening we saw the ego as the problem. It seemed that when it took over all hell broke loose across the earth: corruption, famine, genocide, slavery, deforestation, devastating climate change, polluting of the soil, air and water and so on, and so on. Soulless humans running the show! 

Could it be that the human self, the Ego, got a bad rap. I would like to contemplate another story for a moment. The Souls of humanity choose this experiment of stepping back, letting the Egos take a go at it on their own. Maybe our Souls wanted this particular probability played out to know what it is like to be simply human-identified and feel the full amnesia from the Inner Divine perspective, and then to wake back up to this realization of the truth of who we really are; to forget to remember. 

From our human perspective this seems like a horrible idea! The Ego didn’t ask for this solo gig. It could not even be alive without the breath of spirit giving it life, so why would it want to be alone in an already lonely, separate mind? I have weaved this story, not as truth, but as way for myself to begin to perceive the Ego as something that I can appreciate, love and incorporate as a crucial aspect of my being. As I dismantle the old story of separation and polarity, I aim to allow a new story of interconnection and oneness to arise. It is pushing its way through my mind and my words as I contemplate the ego in a new way. 

My ego and my human-embodied soul are co-pilots on a grand adventure. They need each other. They are indeed apart of each other. When the Soul leaves the body the human self succumbs to the limitations of the physical dimension and re-emerges with the earth-body, Gaia, from which it came. The Soul returns to the spacious infinite dimension among the stars. The love affair comes to an end and the ache for this dance remains forever in the heart of the Soul and the body of the earth. 

In a time and a space within the lush garden of earth a precious and beautiful expression of the Infinite Source of Love entered the womb of a woman, native to this land. The womb was a new and foreign world to the Soul that felt the tangible sensation of its mother’s inner body. The slow and gradual awakening of its senses were fascinating to the soul as it merged with the growing body in the belly. The body carried the imprint of the mother and father and the bodies and minds of the humans that came before. The genetic material gave a unique blend of qualities to create a distinct physical expression of all that came before in the bodies that enable this body to emerge in the particular way it did. 

When this new being emerged from the body of the mother, it felt the familiar energy of the other humans that surrounded it for the first time in a way that it could perceive them as separate energies and shapes and colors and sounds. The explosion of senses was mind-blowing.  But the most stunning was the vision of the mother that it had only knew from within, as a part of her. The beauty and strangeness of her being separate from the body it knew as itself was, well, unsettling to say the least. So it slept, a lot, dreaming of the oneness that it knew as most natural. 

Soon the newborn noticed another energy gently prodding it awake. It whispered in its ear. You are a girl, you are a baby, you are brown and soft and smell like roses. You are magic and I am here to show you how to walk among humans. I will show you how to live in a body and keep it safe. I am your soul’s mate. I am Ego, at your service. She flutters her eyes open with excitement and recognition. Oh yes, this is why I have come: to be human and live within the world of form. My Ego is my mate and together we will be able to navigate a life of possibility, wonder, adventure. We are on the leading edge of creation. 

She feels safe with Ego, even though she never knew what feeling unsafe felt like. Earth is native territory for Ego. It knows the ropes and senses into the lineage that vibrate from the human body’s cells newly activated by this unique expression of Divine Energy. Ego knows how to utilize the strengths and weaknesses that it inherited in the body it inhabits. It diligently begins to train the Energy of the Soul on how to use this body and environment to best create and explore the world around it. Ego loves the scent of roses that the Soul brought with her. It is unearthly somehow and full of mystery. It feels sacred and familiar at the same time. Perhaps this body holds the memory of a time when rituals of Love were practiced in the body. The ego feels the memory and opens with a sigh of ease. 

Ego feels at home with the body, as Soul adjusts to the incredibly limiting range of motion. While she is often frustrated by the helpless little body she has merged with, she is full of awe and wonder as she senses the world from the body with sight, sound, touch, taste and scent. It is both bliss and hell all at once, with waves of ecstasy and pangs of intense fear weaving through the the matrix of the human experience. The Soul is fully present with it all, curious and enthralled by this strange and wonderful world. Ego takes her hand and navigates the fearless soul through the complexities of the human body and psyche and the physical dimension it is one with. A great friendship is being forged as this wild ride begins and then somehow, someway, one day something changed, and they lost each other along the way. 

Without the Soul the Ego was lifeless, desperate and callous. Everything was about survival. She was always anxious and worried and felt like she needed to prove her worth so that she would be loved, safe, alive. She needed to keep everyone in her life safe too, so she would be taken care of. Her body felt heavy and cumbersome. The inner flame was dim, for Soul could not be completely gone or Ego would die. There was just enough memory of her glowing warmth to keep going, trudging through life the best she could. 

Without the Ego, the Soul was groundless. She was unable to fulfill her life’s mission to really experience and know the dimension of form and the beauty that comes with this union when embodying the human. She felt restless for felt connection, intimacy expressed, creation manifested. She yearned to know what she came to earth to know and needed her co-pilot to navigate this earthly terrain that felt so strange and beautiful. 

After eons of separation living in worlds that either exalted or worshiped one or the other or disregarded, ignored, disowned or demonized one or the other,  they remembered that they need each other. They bravely stood up and called forth this union, in spite of the naysayers and the tugging and pulling from one side or the other. They decided that no other relationship is more important than this original union when the soul embodied  human. And with one bold and radical act of Love the two merged together as one, and something magically miraculous occurred.  

This reconciliation rippled through the Universe and across planet earth and the new human soul emerged. And on that day a new story was born, and the old one faded away. In this story spirit and matter are one. Everything is imbued with the divine. The Ego is honored as the wonderful earth guide that it is and the Soul is recognized as the revered guest of honor in the world of form. She is the artist in residence that innovates, inspires and ignites, creating beauty and meaning everywhere she goes. She is brilliant and adventurous and fearless and yet deeply respects the advice of her wise and practical guide that teaches her the human qualities that have evolved over millennia, as the body has learned to adapt to the ever changing environment within the earth plane.  Neither ego or soul is considered more important or sacred than the other in this New Earth that was born from the powerful desire demonstrated that fateful day when the Union of Human Ego and Divine Soul was restored.

Oneness, interconnection, unity consciousness flourished across the land and the golden age of Beauty and Bounty began and continues on into eternity. For the memory of the great division and the sorrow and pain it caused is etched in the DNA of each new human body that becomes embodied by Soul. It serves to remind us so we may know our worth with humility and courage as we forge forward and onward on this grand great adventure we call Life. 

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Making the Dream the Reality

Unity oil on canvas by beki

7/30/2020

We are in the midst of very strange times. I must admit that I have struggled to stay centered in the whirling winds of this hurricane. It seems that we are all being instigated to feel the buried patterns that keep us steeped in a state of separation consciousness. I would like to consider a possibility, as we collectively dance in the waters of this global crisis. 

Could it be that we are in the midst of birthing a new earth? The metaphysical and spiritual community which I resonate with, offers this potential. I would like to wade in the waters of this possibility and allow myself to feel the warm embrace of the cosmic Mother wrap me in her dark and safe womb. 

Could it be that all the extreme expressions of the illusive belief that we are separate from each other, the earth and all of life, is the last crescendo of resistance before the fall of the old paradigm? Could it be that this intensification of polarity consciousness is the rock bottom we all have been waiting for that will initiate the conversion experience that will awaken humanity to a new way of being that embraces interconnection, interdependence, unity consciousness and oneness? Could it be that this long moment in time is pushing all the dysfunctional programs to the surface to be revealed, so that we can make a choice to delete them from our hard drive, allowing space for new programs that serve the sustainability of Life flourishing on earth, including humanity?

Could it be that our collective Soul chose this moment so that we could evolve?

It feels like we are no longer in the warm embracing womb of the Mother. It feels like we are in the throes of labor. It hurts! To so many of us, it feels as though we are dying because the crushing squeeze of each contraction is annihilating the world we know. Some of us are  unconscious and perhaps numbed by medication that keeps us unaware of the intensity of the moment. For some souls, they have chosen to leave the physical dimension so they can assist from the realms of Divine Love, unencumbered by the fear-based ego. Perhaps some have left their bodies because they knew that their sacrifice would serve a greater good to awaken humanity to the insanity born of separation consciousness. Others are riding the rollercoaster ride with zest and zeal, fearlessly diving into the adventure of this drama. This program of control, competition and division is being revealed and the deep desire for a world of unity, cooperation, creativity and collaboration is growing. 

With the new enlivened desire for this new earth to emerge, we become at times, mesmerized by the conditions that are fueling the fierce desire for this expression of Love to take hold. The challenge for those of us who believe in this possibility is that we stay focused ON the new possibility and do not give our precious energy to the dying program that is fighting for its life. Fighting is the nature of the old paradigm. War is its language. It will fight to the bitter end. So it will require intense focus and commitment to remove our focus from this war zone, so that we can envision peace, beauty, thriving life and creative self expression for all. 

Do you remember the movie “A Beautiful Life” where the father creates a world of wonder and adventure for his son in the midst of being contained  within a WW2 concentration camp? For the love of his son, he ‘fooled’ him to believe this was a game, and he was able to keep him alive until the end of the war so that he could reunite with his mother. It takes a very creative, resilient and unique human being to be so focused. His love for his son and wife was so fierce that it gave birth to this intense commitment to creating beauty in the midst of war. He made the dream the reality for his child. 

It is time for us to do the same. We must make our wildest most beautiful, magical dream the reality in our own personal world. We must take our attention away form the world of war that our past has created, and focus on the world of beauty and peace that our past has inspired!

As we do this in the small ways that are close to home, we will grow in our ability to bring this frequency of a new reality to the larger community around us and beyond. We must practice this fierce Love. Let’s think of those that we love easily and fiercely and embody this New Earth for them. Live it and show them the truth of this beautiful new world. It won’t be hard once we train ourselves to see beauty everywhere. It is all around us already. We don’t even have to imagine, although that is always fun to do. Beauty and Love is the essence of all of Life. It is available in each moment, when we allow ourselves to see it. You may have to take out your metaphysical binoculars so that you can truly see the beauty where normally you see pain. Start with the places it is easy and then challenge yourself to find beauty everywhere. 

I assure you that as I write this, that I am writing this for myself. For someone who is addicted to feeling responsibility for the wellbeing of everyone, this is a challenge that I have failed at miserably. But my persistent Inner Being, and the beings of light and love that are always by my side, keep picking me up and patiently nudge me to this sacred seva —the sacred service that does not leave myself out. For as I embody Love, Beauty, Peace, Joy and Freedom, in the midst of a perceived world of the opposite, not only do I emanate this life giving, transforming frequency to the collective world, I am drenched in these divine frequencies and feel the relief of coming home to the Ultimate Truth of God. 

So I see Beauty. I see it. I feel it. I know it even when I can’t see it. It is in the starving child, the raging racist, the dying tree, in the sick and the poor, in violence and peace, in death, in struggle, in pain, in heartache, in the victim and the villain. Yes, this is hard. This is hard to accept, let alone see. We are trained to judge everything as right or wrong, good or bad, beautiful or ugly, worthy or unworthy. We have been trained to see everything as separate within the consciousness of duality and polarity. It is time to experience a new consciousness that can create a new reality. Our old consciousness keeps creating more of the same old reality. 

I don’t know about you, but I am tired of this limited perception of reality and I am down right exhausted by this war that lives inside and outside of me. It is usurping my creativity and zaps all my energy. So I invite you to find your own way to end the war, and to support me and others to envision, create, and see The more Beautiful World our Hearts Know is Possible that is already vibrating with vibrancy right behind the veil of our own limited perception. Let’s lift that veil and live from this reality, so that we can reveal this living truth for all to see!

Calling all Sacred Activists

SOUL TALK

OM HEALER (Self soul portrait) oil on canvas

6/13/2020

The last three months have been a crescendo of grief, fear, inner turmoil, confusion with many delicious dips into the cool pool of remembering, an urging from my soul to remember my inner truth, and tickles of excitement. Something BIG is happening inside of me and outside of me. I am living through an inner/outer contraction of mammoth magnitude! The global pandemic  initiated the contraction.

I remember when I went into labor with each of my sons, and how the powerful force of creative mayhem would enter my body — the contractions ensuing that would give birth to my beloved child, from formless to form, my long awaited progeny. A contraction is painful, intense and downright terrifying. It carries with it the realization that there is no going back. This baby is going to be born and in the act of its emergence, will ravish my body, ripping me open both physically and emotionally. 

When the labor of birth began my body would shake uncontrollably. There is nothing controllable about birth. It is the wild force of nature propelled by the creative Source of all Life. The best that any of us can do in the wake of Birth, is to surrender, allow and breathe. No matter how much you prepare, when the moment comes to bring life into the world, you are ushered into the deep, dark mystery of the Unknown. 

There is no other metaphor that holds the power and essence of what I am wanting to convey right now. For as I feel it, see it, know it, we are in a massive collective contraction. We are steeped in the chaotic power of a creative force that is squeezing us, calling us in, calling us out, ripping us open. It is indeed terrifying and extremely exciting. My little beki, my human mind is freaking out! But my Soul is fucking stoked. My Soul is feeling the fullness and fierceness of the moment. My Soul does not know the fear that my human self carries. She is not fearless, brave or courageous. She is fucking fierce and dared to come back to this wild world of chaos within this small brown body, in a time when folks are waking up to the atrocities that systemic racism has wreaked on black and brown bodies for centuries. My Soul knows something that I am just coming to integrate. She knows that I am Safe. 

Breathe.

Just take that in. 

You are safe too. We are all safe. 

Yes in the midst of a global pandemic, and now in the middle of the revolution for evolution spurred by the demonstrations protesting the murder of George Floyd by a police officer. Like wild fire, the demonstrations have spread throughout the country and across the world. We are demanding that Black Lives Matter. It is an eruption of all emotions all at once: horror, disgust, anger, rage, despair, terror, hopelessness, possibility, connection, isolation, intolerance, excitement, love, passion and purpose, exhaustion and on and on. I have felt many of those emotions. 

Fear and despair tend to be where I go first when I am emotionally triggered — with both the pandemic and the Revolution. I entered into both contractions with an intensity characteristic of my personality, and as I processed the information that was coming from out there I inevitably would find myself redirecting my energy in here — inside. 

Through my own spiritual journey and evolution I have come to understand how important it is for me to tune in to my Soul’s voice, and connect to the Divine Source of ALL life so that I may experience life with clarity and know my place and purpose within the world. For the last two weeks as I delved into the feeling initiated by my focus on the tremendously powerful movement for Black Lives, I ventured out into the world of matter. I felt the fullness of the external world and all the many reactions to it in my energy body and physical body. That is what I do. Perhaps you do too. It is a curse and a blessing. They call people like me empaths. It is exhausting and heart-breaking.

Yet there is a profound alchemy that happens when one learns to work with these energies. This is something I am definitely feeling happen in me right now. Each day I enter into a dialogue with my own Inner Guidance and I am offered tools and insight to navigate the outer and inner terrain that will be most beneficial for my evolution and support my unique offering to the collective. 

I call this work, sacred activism. When I enter the sacred work of communion with the Divine, I alchemize the human dimension of emotion, thought, belief into an elixir of Beauty. What is born from this inner journey of deep connection with the Love that is the very essence of Life, is an expression that arises from the formless. It is unique, alive, personal and universal. It is grounded in the frequency of Love and it feels clear, powerful, joyful and unconditional. 

When I emerge from this inner realm I am born again, awakened and enlightened. I become full of Presence and feel tuned in to the present moment. 

This is the energy that I am able to bring to the world of form, when I have taken the time to go within. 

For the past two days I have been painting a soul portrait, which requires me to enter into the formless, unseen, infinite field of the Divine. In this process, I open, trust, allow and surrender so that the impulse of this Soul can move through me to create a painting that becomes a tool for my client to re-member and awaken to her Divine Self. 

This is how I create. I create form from the formless. I do not focus on what is, and use that as the inspiration for my art. I enter into the dark womb of creation and let it emerge through me into form, as color, shape, energy, vibration made visible. Just as I did not make my sons, but allowed the seed of life to be planted in my womb, to grow and be born through my very body, so that the Soul of my child could be embodied. This was not a conscious choice, but a sacred agreement between my own soul and theirs. 

Now, I sit in the midst of a world that is seemly falling apart, at a tipping point, on the brink of extinction or the brink of ascension, depending on how you see it. Entropy or expansion.  Terrifying to the mind, exhilarating to the Soul. How do I proceed? How do you proceed? 

My Soul is clear. She tells me that I must create from the void. She tells me this is MY way. I am nudged to sit in stillness, tune in until I feel the fullness of Life and Love enter my being, and then steep in it a while longer. My Soul urges me to move beyond the emotions, after giving space for them to be felt and then to feel what is in that space beyond. I may not be able to see it, but I can feel it. She tells me to go where I go when I create art, when I give form to the formless beauty of Soul, Spirit, Love. She reminds me that this is not separate from the world of form, or the human experience, but it is the very Source from which it all came. It is the Mother’s womb of humanity. Spirit and Matter are one. But spirit is the source of creation, while matter is the creation. If you want to create something new, you must stop focusing on what is already manifested! Let the manifested only be the source of inspiration to ignite the new work of art. 

You see we are all mesmerized with what is already manifested in form, in matter, in the world. We are driven by the manifestation and strive to change it from the dimension of form. We are matching our inner vibration with the vibration of what is already created, when now, more than ever, we must generate a new vibration that becomes the force that creates a new creation, a new reality! That new vibration must be cultivated within each of us first and then we can band together energetically with other creators who are doing this inner sacred activism to affect change from the inside-out. 

Some of us will envision a new earth, a new expression of humanity and the way in which we interact with each other and all of life. Some of us, like myself, will feeeeeeel into a new frequency of Love, harmony, joy, freedom, clarity, empowerment, and embody that energy. 

Some will go within and be inspired to create some form of art that reflects the frequency of the new expression of Beauty we desire to see and feel in the world. 

Do not underestimate the power of this inner work. Do not mistake this removal of attention from the conditions of what is to the Infinite field, as ‘burying your head in the sand’. While this is certainly a coping mechanism for many humans living right now, it is not what the sacred activists are doing when they leave the outer world and enter into the fertile ground of the formless dimension. 

It is profoundly creative work, and requires intense focus and commitment. Yet, it is infinitely more kind to myself, as an empath, to follow the current of my own Soul, and leave the abrasiveness of the manifested world, so that I can feel and create the Beauty that heals.

It is easier to go downstream and infinitely more productive and beneficial to myself and my community, when I allow myself to do what I know I am meant to do in this moment in time. 

I share my own process with you today, even as I continue through the twists and turns, the contractions and expansions, the despair, fear, joy and clarity, to offer you this: 

Follow your inner knowing. 

Know your medicine, your gift, your way that is most natural, true and real to you. 

Bare your Beauty! 

Allow yourself to be yourSelf in all this craziness.

Do not let anyone else tell you how to be in the world right now. Only You know!

It is okay to find Peace inside before working towards peace outside. When you feel safe, you have access to joy, and then you walk out in the world and become a vector of joy and love. So do whatever it takes to remember and realize that you are safe. For me, this is core and the frontline of my inner work. 

Some of my tools for alignment: 

The vibrational medicine of flower essences 

fasting from social media and the news

Writing and receiving guidance for the Akashic Records

Walking in nature

Love making

Reading and watching inspirational material

Grounding/earthing

Follow your inner guidance and if you don’t have a relationship with this Inner Source of knowing, love and wisdom, find a way to develop it. Plan to meet up with her/him/You every single day and I promise you, you will fall in Love! For this is who you are, my dear beloveds. 

You. Are. Love. 

And I love you.

So if you choose, 

BE the vibration of Love and it will be reflected back to you in the world you inhabit. 

Stop being afraid, angry, hurt, intolerant… 

Be LOVE and this is what will BE. 

In Reverence, Love, and Oneness

The Divine Disrupter

Written 3/30/2020

We are in the midst of a profound collective contraction, unlike any we have experienced for generations, within humanity. The Coronavirus Pandemic, that began in China some short four months ago has spread across the globe effecting every human on earth in some way. As a result, we are being revealed to a Divine Truth that cannot be ignored. Now more than ever we are experiencing the the Truth of our Oneness. We are feeling how we are intrinsically and intricately connected to each other. This is being felt in the most tangible and physical way. We are part of one body. Within the spiritual context, we are all a part of the One Source, the ‘body of God’. Within the human context, which is simply an extension of the Divine essence of who we are, we are part of the one body of humanity. Each of us, effect each other. We all matter. We are a part of each other, a greater whole. 

We have believed for too long that we are separate from each other, and on an island unto ourself. We have operated within the precarious bubble of safely based on a false premise that what I did, felt, said did not really matter beyond myself and perhaps my small inner circle. Many of us have believed that we really don’t matter, and that my presence or absence in this world does not have much of an impact on the whole. 

Now, as we navigate this massive global crisis, we are being asked to play a part in saving the lives of others within the body of humanity. We are being asked individually to recognize that our presence, our actions and choices, can have a profound impact on the whole. We are being literally revealed to the way in which we are an intricate part of the whole, in this case of humanity. At a Divine level, we are part of a greater whole, as individuated expressions of the Infinite Source of All.

We are being asked to physically distance from each other so that we can contain the virus from spreading unchecked to all parts of the whole, to mitigate as much damage as possible to  the bodies of humanity. We are being inspired to recognize our individual impact on the whole and take social responsibility for not just yourself and loved ones but for the global community. 

The CDC, Center for Disease Control and Prevention, has issued the recommendations for mitigating the virus with simple yet drastic measures: Hyper-vigilant hygiene practices and  ‘social distancing’. In a massive attempt to control human interaction, everything except essential services has been shut down, not just in the United States, but in countries across the world! It is an unprecedented effort that requires the cooperation, not just of the governments that implement and enforce the effort, but each household and individual within the family units. It is easy to ‘cheat’, because it is so incredibly against our nature to socially distance ourself. We are being called to become aware of how our bodies impact another. We breathe the same air as our brothers and sisters in China and Italy, Canada and Argentina, Iran and Russia, just as we breathe the air of our beloved. 

There has never been a time that it is so clear that humanity is one organism made up of billions of ‘cells’ that make up the whole. It seems to me, that it has never been more prudent that we recognize this and stop bickering with the other ‘parts of the whole’ as though they are not necessary elements of our wholeness. We have been at war with each other for so long and it is literally killing us. It is time to stop looking for someone outside of our own ‘body’ to create peace in the world and realize the power that each of us have as a critical part of this whole body of humankind, and make peace with the collective self. Our lives depend on it. When we hate, hurt, curse, abuse, disrespect another, we are in essence doing that to ourself.

Right now we are being called to act in unison, in cooperation, in harmony, so that we can find homeostasis. Perhaps this exercise of divine discipline will activate a new quality of being that reaches for yet a greater health of the human condition. Perhaps this Divine disruption will bring us to our knees ushering us into a prayer for a new possibility of a more unified humanity. Perhaps this intense and painful contraction will be the catalyst needed to birth a new consciousness that awakens us to the Divine Truth of our Oneness, that is expressed in our human interconnectedness. Perhaps our awakened consciousness will remind us of how we belong, not just to each other, but to this earth. Humanity is born of both the Divine dimension and the physical earth body. Perhaps we will not only realize intellectually, but viscerally, in the very core of our being, that the wellbeing of every part of this whole is essential to our wellbeing and that the wellbeing of our planet impacts the wellbeing of humanity. May we be inspired to a deep understanding that the wholeness of our brother and sister affects us all. Whether you love or abhor another, they are a part of you, and until we love all parts of ourself and integrate all of the facets of our being, then we will not be healthy and free. 

This journey starts and ends with the self. Until we heal, feel, integrate and love all parts of ourself and stop projecting our shadows out into the world of the apparent others, we will be spiraling in the illusion of separation and never quite land into the unconditional state of wellbeing and deep peace that is possible. 

So we have brought ourselves this Divine Disrupter in the form of a deadly virus that spreads like wildfires, like the frequency of fear that keeps us from embodying Love. We are being asked to love each other and ourselves enough to stay home, stop everything, get off the tread mill and perhaps consider what really truly matters in life. We have a profound opportunity, like never before, to initiate the sacred act of selfless service and recognize the service to the whole is always service to the Self and in turn, service to the Self is service to the whole. 

This is the sacred activism that is penetrating the old paradigm of separation consciousness and reminding humanity of their interconnectedness, their Oneness with all of life. In recent years this knowing has been activated by the many natural disasters throughout the world. Our Mother Earth has bore the brunt of delivering this divine disruption to awaken humanity, with fires and storms and earthquakes, floods and tsunamis, at a greater frequency and intensity than ever before. Now this virus infiltrates the lungs of humanity reminding us that we breathe as one and that we are truly in this together. 

So let us take this Divine opportunity and synchronize our breath, our movements and elevate our consciousness to the dance of beauty and brilliance that is possible when we collaborate as a global community. Let us love each other by following the collective measures intended to tend to the wellbeing of another and at the same time recognizing that this is the gift we give ourselves. Let us stay centered in Love, grounded in the nourishing heart of the earth, open in heart and embodied by Soul. Do this in your own sweet unique way. We need you now, more than ever. You matter. 

Love overcomes fear. 

Beki

SOUL-view on the Elections and everything else.

First and foremost I identify as a Divine Being having a human experience. I am nevertheless compelled by this human theatre and the upcoming presidential election and the democratic primaries have me in a space of deep contemplation. 

I look at all situations and conditions through the lens of my Soul. I seek to activate the Divine perspective that contains the broad view. It does not perceive from fear and limitation, but from Love and infinite possibility. So this morning I sat in meditation and then entered into the dialogue I have daily with my Divine guidance. Feeling torn between two candidates running for president, and feeling drawn to both for similar and different reasons all at once, I asked my Soul, and Infinite Intelligence for help. This is what I got…

‘No matter who you chose to vote for, when you enter into that voting booth, embody the possibility you desire. Feel it. Revel in it. Imagine it. Feel the excitement of the realization of this transformed world you desire to experience. Carry within you the vibration of this beautiful new world. It is already emerging. There is evidence everywhere of the compassion, innovation, creativity, transformation. Look at where it is, and do not become consumed by where it is not. 

Acknowledge the solutions that have already been unearthed, invented, inspired and feel into the ones that are germinating beneath the surface, ready to push forth from the dark fertile earth, when the conditions are optimal. 

Do not become discouraged or dismayed by the state of affairs that do not match your vision. Thank it for showing you what you do not want and for inspiring a passionate and intense desire for something different. When you align with this desire, and keep the crisp clear channel of this vision, the reception of it will be realized. Clarity is born from the chaos. Beauty is birthed from the darkness. Possibility is defined by the experiences that clarify what is not wanted to know what is. 

So we say to you, dear Soul of this universe, go forth and live the dream, the vision, the possibility that is being born in you. Like a woman pregnant with new life, become pregnant with your desire for a better world and believe in its fruition. The imminence of this birth is upon you. Stay steady and focused and undaunted by the conditions present that don’t please you. Vigilantly focus on the Beauty of your vision. Rather than allowing the unwanted conditions to drain you with fear and anger, let them inspire you to the passionate new vision. 

When you do this, you become a beacon of that possibility. You become a powerful influencer of the frequency that is projected into the reality you are experiencing. When you embody the possibility, you live it before it is manifested. You are immediately living in the liberated reality that you desire for all. 

This is the Soul’s journey. This is the path less travelled. Be a trail blazer and listen to the sweet whisper of your Soul, that knows the way to freedom! ‘ ~ my Soul Source

And so, as we enter into this election cycle and dance in the theatre of politics with all that that entails, let us keep our eye on the prize. Let us feel the fullness of that desired outcome, and be vigilant not to be distracted by the bully in the room. It is not easy. But when we embody our Soul Vision then we can see the bully for what it is: our own projection created so that we may experience enough of what we don’t want so we can define a new creative way to be. The Soul loves the adventure of being human and is undaunted by the manifested reality, because it knows we are the creators of it. And if we remember that, we can begin to create something new. So let’s take our power back. No matter who is in the Oval Office we can create a better world now! Let’s start living from the Soul-view and embody this new vision. 

Happy voting soul family!

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SOUL-view on the Elections and everything else.

First and foremost I identify as a Divine Being having a human experience. I am nevertheless compelled by this human theatre and the upcoming presidential election and the democratic primaries have me in a space of deep contemplation. 

I look at all situations and conditions through the lens of my Soul. I seek to activate the Divine perspective that contains the broad view. It does not perceive from fear and limitation, but from Love and infinite possibility. So this morning I sat in meditation and then entered into the dialogue I have daily with my Divine guidance. Feeling torn between two candidates running for president, and feeling drawn to both for similar and different reasons all at once, I asked my Soul, and Infinite Intelligence for help. This is what I got…

‘No matter who you chose to vote for, when you enter into that voting booth, embody the possibility you desire. Feel it. Revel in it. Imagine it. Feel the excitement of the realization of this transformed world you desire to experience. Carry within you the vibration of this beautiful new world. It is already emerging. There is evidence everywhere of the compassion, innovation, creativity, transformation. Look at where it is, and do not become consumed by where it is not. 

Acknowledge the solutions that have already been unearthed, invented, inspired and feel into the ones that are germinating beneath the surface, ready to push forth from the dark fertile earth, when the conditions are optimal. 

Do not become discouraged or dismayed by the state of affairs that do not match your vision. Thank it for showing you what you do not want and for inspiring a passionate and intense desire for something different. When you align with this desire, and keep the crisp clear channel of this vision, the reception of it will be realized. Clarity is born from the chaos. Beauty is birthed from the darkness. Possibility is defined by the experiences that clarify what is not wanted to know what is. 

So we say to you, dear Soul of this universe, go forth and live the dream, the vision, the possibility that is being born in you. Like a woman pregnant with new life, become pregnant with your desire for a better world and believe in its fruition. The imminence of this birth is upon you. Stay steady and focused and undaunted by the conditions present that don’t please you. Vigilantly focus on the Beauty of your vision. Rather than allowing the unwanted conditions to drain you with fear and anger, let them inspire you to the passionate new vision. 

When you do this, you become a beacon of that possibility. You become a powerful influencer of the frequency that is projected into the reality you are experiencing. When you embody the possibility, you live it before it is manifested. You are immediately living in the liberated reality that you desire for all. 

This is the Soul’s journey. This is the path less travelled. Be a trail blazer and listen to the sweet whisper of your Soul, that knows the way to freedom! ‘ ~ my Soul Source

And so, as we enter into this election cycle and dance in the theatre of politics with all that that entails, let us keep our eye on the prize. Let us feel the fullness of that desired outcome, and be vigilant not to be distracted by the bully in the room. It is not easy. But when we embody our Soul Vision then we can see the bully for what it is: our own projection created so that we may experience enough of what we don’t want so we can define a new creative way to be. The Soul loves the adventure of being human and is undaunted by the manifested reality, because it knows we are the creators of it. And if we remember that, we can begin to create something new. So let’s take our power back. No matter who is in the Oval Office we can create a better world now! Let’s start living from the Soul-view and embody this new vision. 

Happy voting soul family!

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The SOUL PORTRAIT : Are You Ready to Fully Embody Your SOUL?

SOUL Portrait of my son, Chazaray May 15, 2018

  

Your Soul knows you intimately and yearns for you to become aware of It more fully, so that It can become embodied by you in this physical human dimension. Your Soul is your very essence, the aspect of your being that is animating this present you, and is aware of All that you are beyond and within this space and time. Your Soul is ancient, wise and adventurous. It has so much to offer you! For too long we have become overly identified with the ego aspect of ourself, which has forgotten its Oneness with Source. This amnesia can make us feel isolated, afraid, small and stuck. It is time to re-member, to become one again with the Source of our being, the beginning of our breath. It is time to reunite with the whole Self and to embody our Soul, become Soul-centric, to know intimately Who We Really Are.

The Soul Portraits that I paint while in the Akashic Record of your Soul, is a Divine and brilliant, creative way for your Soul to communicate with your human self, in an image that is perfectly tailored for you. Because It knows you so well, It will offer the exact reflection of You that will initiate a recognition, that will catapult you on your evolutionary journey to expansion into the Soul-centric experience of human life that you came here to have! Each portrait holds within it not only visual cues for you to meditate on for your awakening, but embedded codes and symbols that hold a vibrational frequency that will become revealed at the exact time that your readiness allows. It will guide you into your Awakening, for your Soul knows the path to your blossoming. It is time for humanity to Awaken and know its Oneness with the Divine and each other. It is time for us all to evolve and be free. For, the Soul holds the key, the blueprint, to our freedom.

So, why would anyone not want to be in communion with their very own Soul and to have access to the fullness of our being that can unlock the mystery to whatever holds us back from our joy, peace, prosperity, purpose? I can speak from my own personal experience and from what I have observed as I have begun this journey of channeling the Divine in the form of Soul Art and the Soul Portraits, specifically. There was a time not long ago that I was not ready to be fully embodied by my Soul, and was comfortable with the familiar life I had come to enjoy. It felt relatively safe, with the occasional burst of discomfort, and the welling up of fear that I did my best to keep under wraps. However, I always sensed a lurking awareness that I was limiting myself and my full potential. I couldn’t quite put my finger on what I was so afraid of. If I became the full fledged powerful being of divine light, I professed I was and that we are all, would I have to leave the life I knew? Would I have to go meditate on the mountaintop and leave my beautiful family in order to become enlightened, awakened to this True Self? Would I have to step out of my comfort zone, the shadows of my paintings, and be seen? Maybe I would have to speak publicly, a phobia I have struggled with forever. This did not appeal to me, and when I felt the universe was sending me nudges, messages of my divine purpose, I unconsciously recoiled into the familiar, and resumed my domesticated life, literally and figuratively. My mind had become trained, domesticated into what was appropriate to feel, think and how to behave. Freedom, while it was what I yearned for, felt wild and unpredictable.

In 2009 when I had a powerful Awakening, I call my Eagle experience, I got a big dose of what it felt like to be embodied by the Divine mind. There was nothing scary about it. It was pure bliss! I was more engaged and intimate with my world here in the human, earthly realm, than ever before. I felt connected to all of it. I was completely unconditional in my love for all of life. I did not need anything to be different from what it was to feel this untouchable Joy and Love. I could not only sense and know the Love and Joy that I was, I could feel it in everyone else. I was given a great gift that day that unfolded and continued for about 7 days. I was able to know what it is to be Awake. It is when I realized that not only did I not have to give up all that I knew and loved in my life, but that with an awakened mind and heart, I would be more deeply in communion with it all. My love would be untethered by fear: the fear of loss, change, intimacy and even the fear of too much joy, too much freedom, too much peace. How odd it is that we fear so much beauty and bliss, and yet our human experiences have trained us into this domesticated perspective.

After I regained more ‘ordinary’ consciousness and my untethered Self faded back into its trained place, I slowly began the intentional journey into releasing the fear, and awakening to the Divine. The Universe conspired with me in many creative ways to guide me gently and lovingly into healing that which has kept me from my deepest desires and ultimate Awakening. When I was offered the guidance to paint Soul Portraits to support others in their own Healing and Awakening, my own unfolding quickened. I immersed myself in the vibration of the Divine within the Akashic Field, bringing forth images of Souls drenched in Love and Wisdom. My own self soul portrait and recently a second one that I painted to heal a past life as a Healer, has been a profound tool for my own Awakening. It seems not so long ago that I admitted over and over to my own fear of intimacy, and now, with this work and with the Flower essences, I feel myself leaning into intimacy with a sweet relishing of the other, their process, their pain and their healing into wakefulness. I yearn to touch their heart and free their soul, embrace their wholeness and honor their suffering. I am now ready…ready, to go beyond the fear and into sweet delicious intimacy, communion with the Soul of humanity. I am ready to face head on the pain of the past and feel it, allowing it to evolve, so the alchemy of my Self becoming can be realized.

I admit, I am a cautious one, and at times, doubtful of the signals that came from my untethered Self. I know what it is to recoil and chose comfort over expansion. My fear has run deep in the veins of my incarnated bodies. The fearless One that continues to come forth in these various lives, seems to recede into the ethers of another dimension. It becomes intangible and invisible, this very essence of my Self, as I fumble through this dimension with all its ups and downs, not acknowledging that which I cannot see.

Not this time around. This time I am making the Divine visible, with color and paint and a heart wide open, and the quieting of my mind so I may receive the Divine through Art. I am making the divine audible, by speaking Its words and writing them. I am making the Divine tangible by embodying my Soul and recognizing the Soul in others. I am in intimate communion with God, each time I gaze into the eyes of another, my son, my lover, a stranger. I am intimate with the Divine as I enter the field of the Akasha and share its messages whether it speaks to me on wooded paths, or to another in the sacred space of intention and trust. So I am here to share with you my own process so you know you are not alone, and to encourage you to release the resistance to knowing your Self intimately. I am here to gently coax you into readiness for your own healing and awakening…to entice you into the delicious freedom that your Soul is calling you towards. You will lose nothing but your fear. You are safe. You are loved, beyond your ability to imagine. Dive into the divine and you will be embraced and guided into the ecstatic realm of Infinite Possibility and Unconditional Love.