Calling all Sacred Activists

SOUL TALK

OM HEALER (Self soul portrait) oil on canvas

6/13/2020

The last three months have been a crescendo of grief, fear, inner turmoil, confusion with many delicious dips into the cool pool of remembering, an urging from my soul to remember my inner truth, and tickles of excitement. Something BIG is happening inside of me and outside of me. I am living through an inner/outer contraction of mammoth magnitude! The global pandemic  initiated the contraction.

I remember when I went into labor with each of my sons, and how the powerful force of creative mayhem would enter my body — the contractions ensuing that would give birth to my beloved child, from formless to form, my long awaited progeny. A contraction is painful, intense and downright terrifying. It carries with it the realization that there is no going back. This baby is going to be born and in the act of its emergence, will ravish my body, ripping me open both physically and emotionally. 

When the labor of birth began my body would shake uncontrollably. There is nothing controllable about birth. It is the wild force of nature propelled by the creative Source of all Life. The best that any of us can do in the wake of Birth, is to surrender, allow and breathe. No matter how much you prepare, when the moment comes to bring life into the world, you are ushered into the deep, dark mystery of the Unknown. 

There is no other metaphor that holds the power and essence of what I am wanting to convey right now. For as I feel it, see it, know it, we are in a massive collective contraction. We are steeped in the chaotic power of a creative force that is squeezing us, calling us in, calling us out, ripping us open. It is indeed terrifying and extremely exciting. My little beki, my human mind is freaking out! But my Soul is fucking stoked. My Soul is feeling the fullness and fierceness of the moment. My Soul does not know the fear that my human self carries. She is not fearless, brave or courageous. She is fucking fierce and dared to come back to this wild world of chaos within this small brown body, in a time when folks are waking up to the atrocities that systemic racism has wreaked on black and brown bodies for centuries. My Soul knows something that I am just coming to integrate. She knows that I am Safe. 

Breathe.

Just take that in. 

You are safe too. We are all safe. 

Yes in the midst of a global pandemic, and now in the middle of the revolution for evolution spurred by the demonstrations protesting the murder of George Floyd by a police officer. Like wild fire, the demonstrations have spread throughout the country and across the world. We are demanding that Black Lives Matter. It is an eruption of all emotions all at once: horror, disgust, anger, rage, despair, terror, hopelessness, possibility, connection, isolation, intolerance, excitement, love, passion and purpose, exhaustion and on and on. I have felt many of those emotions. 

Fear and despair tend to be where I go first when I am emotionally triggered — with both the pandemic and the Revolution. I entered into both contractions with an intensity characteristic of my personality, and as I processed the information that was coming from out there I inevitably would find myself redirecting my energy in here — inside. 

Through my own spiritual journey and evolution I have come to understand how important it is for me to tune in to my Soul’s voice, and connect to the Divine Source of ALL life so that I may experience life with clarity and know my place and purpose within the world. For the last two weeks as I delved into the feeling initiated by my focus on the tremendously powerful movement for Black Lives, I ventured out into the world of matter. I felt the fullness of the external world and all the many reactions to it in my energy body and physical body. That is what I do. Perhaps you do too. It is a curse and a blessing. They call people like me empaths. It is exhausting and heart-breaking.

Yet there is a profound alchemy that happens when one learns to work with these energies. This is something I am definitely feeling happen in me right now. Each day I enter into a dialogue with my own Inner Guidance and I am offered tools and insight to navigate the outer and inner terrain that will be most beneficial for my evolution and support my unique offering to the collective. 

I call this work, sacred activism. When I enter the sacred work of communion with the Divine, I alchemize the human dimension of emotion, thought, belief into an elixir of Beauty. What is born from this inner journey of deep connection with the Love that is the very essence of Life, is an expression that arises from the formless. It is unique, alive, personal and universal. It is grounded in the frequency of Love and it feels clear, powerful, joyful and unconditional. 

When I emerge from this inner realm I am born again, awakened and enlightened. I become full of Presence and feel tuned in to the present moment. 

This is the energy that I am able to bring to the world of form, when I have taken the time to go within. 

For the past two days I have been painting a soul portrait, which requires me to enter into the formless, unseen, infinite field of the Divine. In this process, I open, trust, allow and surrender so that the impulse of this Soul can move through me to create a painting that becomes a tool for my client to re-member and awaken to her Divine Self. 

This is how I create. I create form from the formless. I do not focus on what is, and use that as the inspiration for my art. I enter into the dark womb of creation and let it emerge through me into form, as color, shape, energy, vibration made visible. Just as I did not make my sons, but allowed the seed of life to be planted in my womb, to grow and be born through my very body, so that the Soul of my child could be embodied. This was not a conscious choice, but a sacred agreement between my own soul and theirs. 

Now, I sit in the midst of a world that is seemly falling apart, at a tipping point, on the brink of extinction or the brink of ascension, depending on how you see it. Entropy or expansion.  Terrifying to the mind, exhilarating to the Soul. How do I proceed? How do you proceed? 

My Soul is clear. She tells me that I must create from the void. She tells me this is MY way. I am nudged to sit in stillness, tune in until I feel the fullness of Life and Love enter my being, and then steep in it a while longer. My Soul urges me to move beyond the emotions, after giving space for them to be felt and then to feel what is in that space beyond. I may not be able to see it, but I can feel it. She tells me to go where I go when I create art, when I give form to the formless beauty of Soul, Spirit, Love. She reminds me that this is not separate from the world of form, or the human experience, but it is the very Source from which it all came. It is the Mother’s womb of humanity. Spirit and Matter are one. But spirit is the source of creation, while matter is the creation. If you want to create something new, you must stop focusing on what is already manifested! Let the manifested only be the source of inspiration to ignite the new work of art. 

You see we are all mesmerized with what is already manifested in form, in matter, in the world. We are driven by the manifestation and strive to change it from the dimension of form. We are matching our inner vibration with the vibration of what is already created, when now, more than ever, we must generate a new vibration that becomes the force that creates a new creation, a new reality! That new vibration must be cultivated within each of us first and then we can band together energetically with other creators who are doing this inner sacred activism to affect change from the inside-out. 

Some of us will envision a new earth, a new expression of humanity and the way in which we interact with each other and all of life. Some of us, like myself, will feeeeeeel into a new frequency of Love, harmony, joy, freedom, clarity, empowerment, and embody that energy. 

Some will go within and be inspired to create some form of art that reflects the frequency of the new expression of Beauty we desire to see and feel in the world. 

Do not underestimate the power of this inner work. Do not mistake this removal of attention from the conditions of what is to the Infinite field, as ‘burying your head in the sand’. While this is certainly a coping mechanism for many humans living right now, it is not what the sacred activists are doing when they leave the outer world and enter into the fertile ground of the formless dimension. 

It is profoundly creative work, and requires intense focus and commitment. Yet, it is infinitely more kind to myself, as an empath, to follow the current of my own Soul, and leave the abrasiveness of the manifested world, so that I can feel and create the Beauty that heals.

It is easier to go downstream and infinitely more productive and beneficial to myself and my community, when I allow myself to do what I know I am meant to do in this moment in time. 

I share my own process with you today, even as I continue through the twists and turns, the contractions and expansions, the despair, fear, joy and clarity, to offer you this: 

Follow your inner knowing. 

Know your medicine, your gift, your way that is most natural, true and real to you. 

Bare your Beauty! 

Allow yourself to be yourSelf in all this craziness.

Do not let anyone else tell you how to be in the world right now. Only You know!

It is okay to find Peace inside before working towards peace outside. When you feel safe, you have access to joy, and then you walk out in the world and become a vector of joy and love. So do whatever it takes to remember and realize that you are safe. For me, this is core and the frontline of my inner work. 

Some of my tools for alignment: 

The vibrational medicine of flower essences 

fasting from social media and the news

Writing and receiving guidance for the Akashic Records

Walking in nature

Love making

Reading and watching inspirational material

Grounding/earthing

Follow your inner guidance and if you don’t have a relationship with this Inner Source of knowing, love and wisdom, find a way to develop it. Plan to meet up with her/him/You every single day and I promise you, you will fall in Love! For this is who you are, my dear beloveds. 

You. Are. Love. 

And I love you.

So if you choose, 

BE the vibration of Love and it will be reflected back to you in the world you inhabit. 

Stop being afraid, angry, hurt, intolerant… 

Be LOVE and this is what will BE. 

In Reverence, Love, and Oneness

Bring Out the Tool Box

Received from the Akashic Records of Humanity on 4/2/2020. during the times of COVID-19

MAIN POINTS:

~Use your tools to help you navigate this time. Share them and learn new ones from others, that resonate with you.

~Utilize the creativity and wisdom from those beings who were once human in near past, to receive insight and inspiration to navigate these times. Loved Ones, ancestors, creatives, masters of their craft, all have much to offer from their new vantage point. 

~Be you. This is your greatest gift to yourself and to the collective. We need you to step in!

It is time to bring out the tool box and use all that you have learned along your path that has served you and put them into good use now. All of the emotional tools, the spiritual practices, the physical practices that keep you aligned, balanced, healthy and at ease. Each human will be charged to access what they know, and follow that inner knowing. It will not be the same for everyone but there will be groups of people that will find solace, connection and purpose within similar practices. 

So, by all means share your tools with others, and you may be an inspirer, reminder and/or resonator with others who are feeling overwhelmed at this time. Speak up and out to inspire what you aspire to in yourself. For some it will be to find a place of deep peace, and faith. Others, a sense of purpose, found through work or creative self expression. Some will seek a way to be in service, and some will be looking for the transformation of an old way.

Allow yourself to become aware of what it is you seek to experience in this period of collective contraction. Everyone is moving through this birth canal together in their own way, and some are still in gestation and others are close to crowning but no one has yet emerged. There will be waves of undulating contractions which will propel this process. Trust in the process and utilize the tools that you have garnered and share them with others who may have been asleep in the past and are just waking up to the shock of this evolutionary wave. 

Some of the tools are meditation, mindfulness practices, good nutrition, exercise, gratitude practices, dance and other forms of creative movement, artistic practices of all kinds, activating creativity, sexual connection with your beloved. Grounding, earthing and connecting to the earth is critical and will be a profound way to transmute fear frequencies. So these tools will be invaluable for you to activate and share. It will also be a time to receive from others new ways of feeling aligned to the Essence of All of Life, the Source, and to your own Divine Self. 

As you receive and share the tools of alignment with those of you who are now embodied, we encourage you to become aware of the legions of support from the non physical dimension. The Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones within Akasha are always available for you to tap into and receive insight and guidance. There is an infinite resource of wisdom and intelligence and creativity available for you from those of us who have known what it is to be human and are deeply connected to the earth plane. We desire to be of support. 

Your artists, innovators, creatives, and intellectuals of the recent past are looking to assist humanity as well. Your world is in a great and profound transition and the potential for transformation is great. You can participate in your own way. By accessing the beings who have interacted with you in the physical in the past, you can receive a new perspective that can be very helpful for you as you navigate the current challenge. Become aware of them and they will give you the insight that will become a part of the solutions being sequestered by much of humanity now as a result of this intense period in human history. 

Know that you have come to this time and space because you had both something to give, and something to receive from the conditions that are present within this lifetime. Open to the awareness of your personal and intimate purpose for coming into the physical world at this time. Check in and ask your Soul, what It wants to know, feel, experience, receive and give. As you tune into your Soul perspective in this way, you will not only feel enlightened, you will sense yourself becoming a frequency that will be of great service to this time and space and this will be of great solace to your human mind. As your human consciousness is soothed you will truly be able to experience this contraction with a greater excitement and joy. 

You are indeed on the ride of your life! Your Soul came here for these times. Remember this. You are strong. You are so brave and you have so much to offer. Your presence is precious and perfectly perfect for this moment. Be you! The greatest gift you give to the body of humanity and the body of God, is for you to BE YOU fully, unapologetically, with love, grounded in self-love, with respect for self and other, with joy, creativity and humility. Be natural. Be you. We need you now to drop the mask and claim your worth, your Bare Beauty. 

Step in dear ones, or you will be asked to step aside. It is time. Let this historic contraction of divine proportion be the impetus that takes you out of the sidelines and inspires you to dive in. The Divine dives in!  So embody the divine you, embrace your soul, and liberate yourself from the fear propelled by the human consciousness, and infuse the Soul perspective into this world so that you all may know the beauty that is being created right now, by you and all the legions of beings both physical and non physical. 

In Love and Oneness

~Divine Guidance

REMEMBER

The Emergence within the Emergency

3/15/2020

I feel that within this whirling maelstrom of information, it is important that we have access to a different perspective, the Soul-view. I find that in order for me to navigate the most difficult times, I am soothed, reassured, reminded, inspired and empowered when I tune in to my Divine Guidance. Every day I enter into communion with the Divine, through a sacred ritual and prayer that accesses the Source of wisdom and Love within the Akasha. I share this with you in hopes that it offers you some insight and peace as it did for me. Stay well. Stay connected. Be brave. We got this!

Beki:

Strange times. It feels like we are in a movie; apocalyptic, sci-fi. It is so surreal and yet, in this moment, the sun shines, spring is budding fresh green brilliance and flowering colors everywhere. All is well in my personal reality, but the projections of crisis, doomsday, are rampant. Everything is being cancelled. Graduations, school, sports seasons, art festivals, gatherings of all kinds. We are being encouraged to what is called social distancing so that we protect ourselves and our loved ones from this imminent spread of COVID-19  global pandemic. There is so much fear and confusion. We are not just dealing with the issue of sickness and loss of life, but also loss the of livelihood for many. The economic fallout will be severe for so many, particularly those who are poor, sick, unstable in their lives in any way. How do we move through this? Will we be okay?

Divine Guidance: 

Remember, dear ones, you are unlimited beings, divine in nature, infinite and eternal. There is nothing that can touch this Truth. There is nothing that can stop you from being. YOU are the creators of your reality, individually, and at some level collectively. Your responsibility in the collective reality is really based mostly on how much or little you activate your inner power as an individual creator. As you punt and follow the current of the collective consciousness demonstrating whatever it is, such as fear, hysteria, paranoia, greed, and hopelessness, then you will succumb to the reality that you perceive. 

To be a deliberate, conscious creator, you must reject the aspects of collective consciousness that do not align with your vision. In other words, you must not give attention and energy to the manifestations and thought patterns that are not serving the creation you wish to realize. Be mindful of how you buy into the story of what is showing up in your current collective reality. Non of the manifestations that are occurring are intrinsically real or true.  They are made true and real by your attention to it. (NOTE: This is divine truth, not human perception that tends to observe reality rather than realize that our observation is keeping that reality solid and real. Quantum physics speaks to this phenomena. This is not intentional of course, but a result of unconsciousness. We have forgotten that we are creators)

Focus on your own vision, your own creation. What do you desire to see in your world right now? What do you want to create for yourself and your community? Steer away from those who feed off of fear, who may distract you or influence you to fear. This prescribed ‘social distancing’ can be very useful for this reason. Use it to your advantage! Yet, stay connected to those who feed your vision, build on it, inspire more brilliance and beauty to expand upon it.

This is a good time to discern what you will and will not engage in and with whom. As you take space from the flow of normal life, take time to get clear. Craft your vision of what you want to elevate in your world. Be the Divine architects that you are meant to be. We would recommend that you be extra vigilant right now with the rampant fear energies that are feed by the information sources you have access to. As you navigate the physical reality, follow the guidelines that allow you to participate within the current collective reality in a way that is respectful and mindful. 

As you wash your hands, remember that you are cleansing the frequencies of fear from your body. As you eat with more consciousness to keep your body healthy to keep your immune system robust, be even more mindful of what thoughts and beliefs you ingest that rob you from a healthy state of mind. As you keep your physical distance from others, lean into intimacy with the non-physical dimension. Connect deeply with Source, Soul, God. Embrace Love. And by all means, lean into the heart and soul of humanity. Recognize and feel your connectivity with humanity and hold the beings, embodied on earth at this time, close to your heart. Let this be a time of cultivating less distance from you and You. Meet with your Soul often. Stay connected as you take space. 

This is the best time to be physically reconnected to the earth. Sit on her, dig into her, sing to hear, dance on her, walk with her. Listen to the whispers of her sweet song, her wisdom, nourishing and nurturing gifts. Let yourself be caressed by the Mother Earth. Let her body touch yours. As you move away from human touch, become more intimate with the earth. Love her as she Loves you. 

There is something magical happening within the contraction that now ensues and engulfs humanity. Alchemy is at hand and new reality will soon be revealed. For each individual it will look different. Each of you, in your own way, is calling forth transformation. Each of you are dying to the old and giving birth to a new life, a new earth. The labor of this moment will be felt in unique ways for each of you. The more you resist, the more arduous the labor. Resistance is fueled by fear. Surrender to this process. It is happening whether you think you want it or not. Allow the divine energy of Life to propel this labor and life forward. Breathe, relax, open so the emergence within the emergency can occur without too much discomfort and pain. You can do this! Allow your Soul to embrace you as you ride the waves of these contractions. 

Remember who you are. You are a Divine being of Love and Light. You are unlimited, eternal, infinite and free. You are so much more than this beautiful body and human mind. Become whole and you will wholly know your holiness and the sacred holiness of all that is expressed in the physical world you inhabit. There is nothing that is happening in this time and moment that your Soul is not ready for. 

Remember Love. Stay aligned to the frequency of Divine Love and you will stay connected to your own Soul. Embody this Love, emanate it and you will be a healing elixir unto the world. As you ride the wave of this collective contraction, focus your eyes on the horizon of your beautiful vision for the new earth, for an awakened humanity. Feel the joy, anticipation, possibilities, stunning beauty and deep peace contained within this vision. Feel it NOW. 

All of you creative, brave souls who are able to do this are healers, visionaries, creators of the new world. You are accessing the infinite power of the Universe. You are levied by the ineffable beauty of divine Love. The wind is at your back, and while the waves are choppy, your Inner being, that you meet with each day, sits peacefully within the still depths of the warm sea. 

Imagine the best possible vision you can conjure. In regards to all that you are concerned about, see and feel the infinite expansion of beauty within these conditions. And then, remember, again, who you are. Remember the power of You. As you remember you will know that this vision must be realized. 

My Divine Rainbow Soul

In deep Love and Oneness

Beki

The SOUL PORTRAIT : Are You Ready to Fully Embody Your SOUL?

SOUL Portrait of my son, Chazaray May 15, 2018

  

Your Soul knows you intimately and yearns for you to become aware of It more fully, so that It can become embodied by you in this physical human dimension. Your Soul is your very essence, the aspect of your being that is animating this present you, and is aware of All that you are beyond and within this space and time. Your Soul is ancient, wise and adventurous. It has so much to offer you! For too long we have become overly identified with the ego aspect of ourself, which has forgotten its Oneness with Source. This amnesia can make us feel isolated, afraid, small and stuck. It is time to re-member, to become one again with the Source of our being, the beginning of our breath. It is time to reunite with the whole Self and to embody our Soul, become Soul-centric, to know intimately Who We Really Are.

The Soul Portraits that I paint while in the Akashic Record of your Soul, is a Divine and brilliant, creative way for your Soul to communicate with your human self, in an image that is perfectly tailored for you. Because It knows you so well, It will offer the exact reflection of You that will initiate a recognition, that will catapult you on your evolutionary journey to expansion into the Soul-centric experience of human life that you came here to have! Each portrait holds within it not only visual cues for you to meditate on for your awakening, but embedded codes and symbols that hold a vibrational frequency that will become revealed at the exact time that your readiness allows. It will guide you into your Awakening, for your Soul knows the path to your blossoming. It is time for humanity to Awaken and know its Oneness with the Divine and each other. It is time for us all to evolve and be free. For, the Soul holds the key, the blueprint, to our freedom.

So, why would anyone not want to be in communion with their very own Soul and to have access to the fullness of our being that can unlock the mystery to whatever holds us back from our joy, peace, prosperity, purpose? I can speak from my own personal experience and from what I have observed as I have begun this journey of channeling the Divine in the form of Soul Art and the Soul Portraits, specifically. There was a time not long ago that I was not ready to be fully embodied by my Soul, and was comfortable with the familiar life I had come to enjoy. It felt relatively safe, with the occasional burst of discomfort, and the welling up of fear that I did my best to keep under wraps. However, I always sensed a lurking awareness that I was limiting myself and my full potential. I couldn’t quite put my finger on what I was so afraid of. If I became the full fledged powerful being of divine light, I professed I was and that we are all, would I have to leave the life I knew? Would I have to go meditate on the mountaintop and leave my beautiful family in order to become enlightened, awakened to this True Self? Would I have to step out of my comfort zone, the shadows of my paintings, and be seen? Maybe I would have to speak publicly, a phobia I have struggled with forever. This did not appeal to me, and when I felt the universe was sending me nudges, messages of my divine purpose, I unconsciously recoiled into the familiar, and resumed my domesticated life, literally and figuratively. My mind had become trained, domesticated into what was appropriate to feel, think and how to behave. Freedom, while it was what I yearned for, felt wild and unpredictable.

In 2009 when I had a powerful Awakening, I call my Eagle experience, I got a big dose of what it felt like to be embodied by the Divine mind. There was nothing scary about it. It was pure bliss! I was more engaged and intimate with my world here in the human, earthly realm, than ever before. I felt connected to all of it. I was completely unconditional in my love for all of life. I did not need anything to be different from what it was to feel this untouchable Joy and Love. I could not only sense and know the Love and Joy that I was, I could feel it in everyone else. I was given a great gift that day that unfolded and continued for about 7 days. I was able to know what it is to be Awake. It is when I realized that not only did I not have to give up all that I knew and loved in my life, but that with an awakened mind and heart, I would be more deeply in communion with it all. My love would be untethered by fear: the fear of loss, change, intimacy and even the fear of too much joy, too much freedom, too much peace. How odd it is that we fear so much beauty and bliss, and yet our human experiences have trained us into this domesticated perspective.

After I regained more ‘ordinary’ consciousness and my untethered Self faded back into its trained place, I slowly began the intentional journey into releasing the fear, and awakening to the Divine. The Universe conspired with me in many creative ways to guide me gently and lovingly into healing that which has kept me from my deepest desires and ultimate Awakening. When I was offered the guidance to paint Soul Portraits to support others in their own Healing and Awakening, my own unfolding quickened. I immersed myself in the vibration of the Divine within the Akashic Field, bringing forth images of Souls drenched in Love and Wisdom. My own self soul portrait and recently a second one that I painted to heal a past life as a Healer, has been a profound tool for my own Awakening. It seems not so long ago that I admitted over and over to my own fear of intimacy, and now, with this work and with the Flower essences, I feel myself leaning into intimacy with a sweet relishing of the other, their process, their pain and their healing into wakefulness. I yearn to touch their heart and free their soul, embrace their wholeness and honor their suffering. I am now ready…ready, to go beyond the fear and into sweet delicious intimacy, communion with the Soul of humanity. I am ready to face head on the pain of the past and feel it, allowing it to evolve, so the alchemy of my Self becoming can be realized.

I admit, I am a cautious one, and at times, doubtful of the signals that came from my untethered Self. I know what it is to recoil and chose comfort over expansion. My fear has run deep in the veins of my incarnated bodies. The fearless One that continues to come forth in these various lives, seems to recede into the ethers of another dimension. It becomes intangible and invisible, this very essence of my Self, as I fumble through this dimension with all its ups and downs, not acknowledging that which I cannot see.

Not this time around. This time I am making the Divine visible, with color and paint and a heart wide open, and the quieting of my mind so I may receive the Divine through Art. I am making the divine audible, by speaking Its words and writing them. I am making the Divine tangible by embodying my Soul and recognizing the Soul in others. I am in intimate communion with God, each time I gaze into the eyes of another, my son, my lover, a stranger. I am intimate with the Divine as I enter the field of the Akasha and share its messages whether it speaks to me on wooded paths, or to another in the sacred space of intention and trust. So I am here to share with you my own process so you know you are not alone, and to encourage you to release the resistance to knowing your Self intimately. I am here to gently coax you into readiness for your own healing and awakening…to entice you into the delicious freedom that your Soul is calling you towards. You will lose nothing but your fear. You are safe. You are loved, beyond your ability to imagine. Dive into the divine and you will be embraced and guided into the ecstatic realm of Infinite Possibility and Unconditional Love.

Intimacy

What does it mean to be intimate? The concept has been one that has eluded me for a long time. Am I afraid of intimacy? Am I really willing to be intimate? Am I holding back from life, from my lover, from my relationships? What scares me—being vulnerable, being hurt? 

It seems to me that it takes courage to be intimate, and intimacy starts with the Self. Intimacy, when mastered, is the highest spiritual ideal, because it allows for a sweet, delicious connection to All That Is. It recoils from nothing. It walks into the darkness, the earthy barren fields of the unknown, and brings a living breathing expression of Love, which embraces the mystery as it steps into thin air, unafraid and unconcerned as to where its foot will land. Intimacy takes Faith—Faith beyond words. Faith that viscerally knows all is well, that I am safe, that I am One with all of life. Even that is too many words and inadequate to describe the Faith that Intimacy knows.

I yearn to be intimate—fearlessly and recklessly intimate—with all that shows up in my life.

Intimacy is an Open Heart, a spacious mind, a body that melts into the surrounding molecules of moisture, indiscernible to the senses, but utterly intoxicating to Intimacy. Intimacy risks vulnerability without a second thought, because it knows it is intrinsically safe and that, in truth, there are no risks. Intimacy embraces fear and transforms it into Love. It is alchemy. It is the eyes of the newborn, whose unflinching gaze takes you in, into the Love it is, without apology, explanation, requirements or neediness. 

Intimacy is flawlessly free,

utterly and completely.

It requires intimacy to be Awake.

It transforms the mind and lives deep within the heart.

It is the surest and sweetest path

back to the Self.

Except taken from Bare Beauty. Available on Amazon and at www.bekiart.com


BARE BEAUTY

I am excited to share my new book, BARE BEAUTY: my journey of AWAKENING! This poem is at the beginning of the book. I will be sharing excerpts from the book, so stay tuned. Enjoy!

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Bare Beauty

I ache to see the unseen
To breathe in the scent of
Love
Shared

I want to touch the
Beauty of your
Bare naked
Soul
That radiates
From INSIDE
The deepest widest part
of my being

I thirst for the color
Of sensuous rivers
Drinking in the Divine nectar
Of the Mother Earth

I lie open, bare, empty
Waiting
Patiently
Peacefully
With gentle anticipation
To be penetrated
Filled
With beauty
My beauty
Your beauty
Inner
Outer
Empty
Bare beauty

I close my eyes
As my heart awakens
Vibrating with color
Light
Sound
Seeping sweet syrupy
Warmth
Into my veins
Watering the plants of my Garden of Eden
Awakening me
Gently prodding me
To open my eyes
To see
The bare beauty of
All things
seen and unseen
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Weathering Flo

Interestingly, just one year ago I posted a blog about navigating Hurricane Irma. Now my muse is Flo, and she inspired this expression of my inner contemplation. We keep getting the opportunity to face life’s challenges and to see how we have evolved. 

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Painting: The Vortex, oil on canvas by Beki

Sept. 16, 2018

Years ago I stopped watching TV and especially avoided mainstream news sources. My choice to do so was a response to my own Inner Guidance System (IGS) that is always sending signals of what actions to take and decisions to make. It is tailored for me. Indicators are offered by how I feel and the only way I can get an accurate read, is by removing myself from the outside hurricane, and enter into the stillness and quiet of my own inner connection to the Divine. Long ago, my IGS sent me the message that I was to remove myself from the outer storm in order for me to find the Eye/I of my inner being, which is Peace.

I trust that I will receive the information I need to make an aligned and wise decision, without entering the fray of media and its unsavory approach to sensationalizing the facts and science with way too much extraneous data. The media is emotionally manipulative and I simply do not want to put myself through that mental/emotional storm, especially in the middle of a literal one!

Hurricane Flo(rence)just passed us by. She whirled and danced out at sea for many many days and the mental storm began as the reporters and politicians built up the emotional drama that obscured so many of us from the simple facts of an unfolding track of when and where the storm would hit the Southeastern coast of the United States. As a resident of Charleston, SC, I am accustomed to the threats of hurricanes, and we often sit and observe the possibilities of the forces of nature heading our way, like the slave ships from the middle passage. I always feel this eery awareness of the track these hurricanes take, following a profoundly painful storm of emotion from captive African people past, traversing the Atlantic, not knowing what lied ahead. Could it be that these wild and powerful winds that take this path, are cleansing the auric field of the waters of our earth, to release the pain and trauma held in this part of the body of our great Mother?

As a vibrational healer, that uses the healing modality of Reiki, a form of healing touch, to help shift blocked energy in the body of the client, I have experienced how people store trauma in different parts of their physical and etheric bodies. The energy needs to be moved, shaken up, acknowledged, and felt, so that is can be released, transmuted, transformed. Could it be that the winds of nature are cleansing the blocked energies that are held in the earth and in the consciousness of humanity?

What I am most interested in contemplating right now, is how we can weather the emotional mental storms that come our way. How do we navigate the assaults that seem to come from outside of us and we have no control of? How do we find the peace in the chaos, and find our inner Eye/I of the hurricane?

Charleston was virtually untouched by the physical storm for the most part. A mandatory evacuation was ordered on Monday September 10th, which truly was too soon to really predict the path of Florence. Today it is Sunday, almost a week later, and we have barely gotten any rain. Hysteria began and the inner storm in the minds of the people on the coast raged, especially as they sat in front of TVs for hours of non-stop coverage, that espoused emotional language that would undoubtedly incite fear. Words like a “Beast of a storm’, ‘ a monster’, ‘the storm of a lifetime.’ I got glimpses of the onslaught. I retreated the best I could, and attempted to meditate, and listen to the Divine Guidance within me that never steers me wrong. It was challenging, but I managed pretty good, to still feel the Peace of my soul. I consulted sources that were offering information without the drama, so that we could make decisions based on fact, and not the fear-based emotions that whirled around me.

The dance of Flo was unpredictable and as it is with most forces of nature, she reminded us that we are really not in control. We can do our best to try to predict and control the world around us, but the deeper lesson for me from Flo is that I best learn to go with the flow, or I will be whirling around in a mental storm that robs me of the very Peace that I AM. Flo is a reminder of how we are always navigating these mental storms and that with intention and consciousness, we can commit to the Peace that resides at the center of all hurricanes. The peace that resides at the center of our own being. If we cultivate this commitment to Inner Peace then when we embark out into the whirling chaos of the world, we can bring this powerful force of Divine nature with us, and we can indeed have a positive influence on the climate around us.

I am grateful for Flo, and all the hurricanes of life, that prompt me to practice Peace with deep intention and focus. I am grateful that I did not need to experience the Eye of Flo this time but received her gift in a gentle way. Each of us affected by the presence of Flo whirling towards our coast, had our own personal experience. Some lives were impacted in very profound and tangible ways, with physical loss involved. More of us were pulled into the mental and emotional storm to weather in our own way.

How did you weather the storm? Can you see the gift she left at your doorstep? How will you BE the next time you encounter a storm, whether it is literal of metaphorical? I encourage you to seize this opportunity to contemplate these questions, so that you may ride the wave of the alchemy that is offered by all of life’s challenges.

In Love and Oneness and deep gratitude,

Beki

DAD and the Quest for Beauty

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I wrote this piece the morning of the afternoon that I received a call from Nana, my stepmother, letting me know that Dad’s health had taken a turn for the worse, and that I better get to Canada to see him right away. I had reservations to go in 2 weeks. Thankfully I boarded a plane the next morning and had five days of heart-wrenching, tender, sweet, blessed, and at times hilarious, moments with my beloved father. This past Monday, July 23, 2018, my dad took flight and left the body that housed the beautiful Soul of my Dad. I share this in honor of him, with deep gratitude and love, and a heart broken . . . Wide OPEN.

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Dad loves to walk through nature with binoculars, not just as he climbs mountains to see far off vistas. But also, he takes them on walks through his own neighborhood, so that he can see a perspective of beauty that cannot be seen with his bare eyes. He reaches for the beauty beneath the surface of an emblazoned Fall leaf, fallen to the ground, the varied tones of color on lilies lining his house, a bee crawling deep into a bloom, the reflections of trees in the serene waves of a lake. He would be in awe at this deeper beauty that many of us pass by, unaware of what lies beneath the surface of what we see. Dad enthusiastically shares his appreciation, handing over the binoculars so I can see what he sees.

I am a visual artist, who uses paint to express a world beyond sight. I interpret the beauty of the Divine, Souls, Spirit that vibrates within and beyond this tangible world, we behold. I reach beyond what I see and I feeeeeeel this dimension of boundless Love and infinite possibilities, and I use color, shape, movement, and insight, inner sight, to express the beauty beneath and beyond the surface. I paint the essence beyond the form, of flowers and fauna. I paint the Soul, embodied by humanity, and the human enlivened by the soul.

My dad’s love of beauty, his appreciation for the deliciousness of life and his passion for the wellbeing of all people and this beloved planet, undoubtedly inspired this deep passion within me as well. This passion has blossomed into my own unique expression, through art, vibrational healing and sacred activism that aims to uncover the buried parts of another, so they can be revealed to their own bare beauty, their unique genius and gift to us all. I peer through my metaphorical binoculars and enthusiastically tell them what I see, that they cannot see, about the beauty and perfection of them.

My Dad is a passionate lover of Beauty, of Life, of humanity, of family, of the great Mother Earth. His activism is fueled by this Love. This is the way God lives and expresses Itself through my father. Through his love, felt and expressed in his own unique way, he has changed the world. He has brought more Beauty to the surface, so more of us can see and feel it with bare eyes. Dad has tirelessly toiled to raise consciousness and offer solutions to raise humanity to a place where poverty and hunger no longer hinder us from knowing the Beauty of being human.

By first seeing the pain and injustice, the flaws in the systems of society, he reaches, as I do, to unearth the Beauty of humanity and the absolute brilliance of the planet we inhabit, to inspire a deep desire for change. How can we make this world a better place for all humans, for all sentient beings, honoring the earth and recognizing the interconnection of all life?

My father, in his own unique way, has shown me this truth. The truth of Beauty beyond our wildest imagination, and the sobering reality that too many of us can’t see it. So in honor of my Dad and his beautiful, bold and brilliant spirit, let’s all get out our binoculars and commit to seeing the Beauty above and beyond, and live our lives in sacred service to sustaining and honoring this Bare Beauty in ourselves, others and in the beloved Mother that sustains us all!

 

BEAUTY that Lies Beneath the Surface
Reach into the truth of Beauty and you will
see and feel
the beauty that lies at the core of EVERYTHING

The cleansing waters within the tears of anguish
The joy underneath the sorrow
The love at the core of grief

The wisdom born of failure
The baby born from pain
Compassion felt from knowing suffering

Deep rest inspired by a sick body
Passion and purpose awakened
in the midst of the unacceptable

Liberation and reunion within the dying body
Life at the core of death.
Eternal life beyond the physical

Peace in the center of the storm
Joy in the midst of sorrow
Laughter in the middle of loss.

Wholeness at the deepest core of the most wounded and broken of us
Oneness in a world of individuals

Beauty is everywhere
Within everything and engulfing it ALL
It takes faith
Imagination
and vision to know the Truth of the
Beauty you cannot see

But if you have the desire and the intention
I promise you,
the miracle of Beauty
will reveal itself to you
and your inner sight will be reflected in your outer vision
and together we will transform the world!

I love you, Daddy! Fly high!

The Inner Hurricane

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‘Eye of the Storm” oil on canvas, Beki

This has week has been utterly exhausting emotionally and mentally, as we and many more in the Caribbean, Florida and the South Eastern US have been watching the strongest biggest storm on record to plough its way through the waters crushing islands and threatening our safety, stuff and peace of mind.

Peace of mind is what I really want to address here. How do we cultivate an aptitude to inner peace, so that when life’s hurricanes, literally or figuratively, threaten our wellbeing, we are able to respond from peace rather than fear? Today is 9/11, an infamous day here in the US when the Twin Towers in New York City were reduced to rubble after 2 planes intentionally flew into them. It was shocking and devastating and rocked the sense of security Americans had felt in regards to such attacks. It shattered a collective sense of comfort and maybe a false peace of mind. 911 are the number we dial to call for HELP.

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How can we dial directly to the help that taps into the peace of mind that allows us to weather any storm that life delivers to us? Yesterday, in the midst of this whole experience of preparing for Hurricane Irma that was slowly turning west away from us, revealing that the personal threat to our town and home would be minimal, I grappled with my own inner storm. I woke up at 3 am to find my two sons and nephew ‘mesmerized’ in playing computer games together. It triggered a mini storm in my head that I seemed incapable of quelling. My initial internal venting entailed feelings of anger, indignation, irritation, hopelessness for humanity and the obsession with these glowing screens that give us this false sense of connection with each other, but actually rob us of the connection with the organic world of human contact and the beautiful earth we inhabit. Yes I went there! As a mother of 3 sons I have grappled with this feeling of frustration around the whole issue of video games and such for 20 years. It has definitely been one of those reoccurring concerns/thorns that has contributed to taking away my Inner Peace, uncountable times. Needless to say, the inner storm amidst the outer storm robbed me of much needed sleep.

I don’t want to focus so much on the issue of glowing screens here. What I am really interested in is the inner storms that can be triggered by thousands of stressful thoughts. Usually the thought is aligned with fear. Certainly the discomfort felt in preparing for a hurricane and watching the media coverage around the storm has the potential to cause as much angst as riding out the storm itself. It is the projection of a devastating future, fear future, that grips us. With the modern conveniences of glowing screens 24 hours a day, we have this thought that somehow we can control the outcomes by listening to the confusing, mixed messages offered, whether it is about the weather or diseases or politics. We cling to the messages hoping they will provide us with the guidance that will solve the problems that face humanity. Secretly we wish for the guidance to quell the storm in our mind, possibly even more than the condition that is causing it. Of course the true guidance we seek can only be found in the silencing of the fear-based chatter and to go to the True Source of all solutions.

Suffering stems from the thoughts, not the reality. I have suffered on and off this past week as we navigated the information about this outer storm. There were times I was able to consciously focus on peace and stayed away from the media as much as possible, but still would catch wind of fearful frequencies. Well, how could I miss them. The frequencies of the fear blew as strong as Irma’s winds. We are challenged to find a way to the inner peace, the ‘I’ of the storm, that is serene amongst the mayhem of life. This is the greatest challenge of the times, I feel. The distractions are unbelievable! How can we cultivate this Inner Peace instead of feed the fire of the Inner Storm?

While I do not know what the ultimate answer is for that question, I do know that I am on a journey of answering that for myself. Each of us needs to find our own way. It is the awareness and intention that is the first step. As we become aware of the source of our inner storm as the thoughts we think, then we realize that we can intentionally redirect the thoughts. What activity or practice can support you in redirecting thoughts? I walk in nature. I write, I paint. Sometimes meditation helps. Going to sleep is miraculous. What calms your storm? What nurtures the scared inner child? What soothes you back into alignment with the Source of your True Self?

peacePeace’, oil on canvas, by Beki

When I align with Love, with the Divine, with my Inner Being, the unlimited, eternal Self I feel a deep joyful peace. When I feel this peace, I do not feel fear. The two emotions cannot abide together. I recently heard a zen monk say, ” To be fearless really is actually being peaceful.” Unconditional Love is really being able to stay aligned with Love regardless of the conditions. Unconditional Peace, Joy, Love. This is the practice that brings freedom.

When I am able to live more and more from this cultivated, intentional place of unconditional Love, Peace and Joy then not only do I benefit from this freedom, but I have a chance to affect Peace in the world around me, one person at a time. My very presence will then have the potential to quell the storm within another, and another and another.