Miracles and Magic

Z-Awakend

Written 9/26/2016

I experienced a miracle two days ago. I was frantically rushing to prepare breakfast for my friends for our Monday morning (spiritual) Awakening meeting. I made a beautiful frittata, put it in the oven and with 10 minutes to spare, jumped in the shower to get myself ready for the day. I had spent too much time cleaning the porch for our meeting, and was not as peaceful in my approach to my day as I would have liked. Oh well. No big deal. Bradely was there when I came out of my room, because I left the door unlocked. I took the frittata out of the oven and started getting some other little things together as I chatted with Bradely. Without thinking about it I turned around to move the skillet over and grabbed the scorching hot, straight-out-the-oven skillet. The searing pain was immediate and I screamed and ran to my room to get the cream for the burn. My entire palm and fingertips burned like crazy. I felt the awareness of the possible severity of the burn and the limitations it would create in my life while it was healing. I also felt a flash of gratitude that it was my left hand, as I am right handed and I think about my writing and painting hand as a sacred tool for my life purpose. I lathered the cream on my hand as tears rolled down my face.

The intensity of pain was consuming. The presence of Bradley and Sherman (my husband), who was awakened by my scream, was comforting, and yet it felt like they were a foggy haze barely audible as my immediate attention was riveted by the burning sensation. My whole hand was beet red. I could not sit still and so I left my room and them and paced around for a moment and then walked out to the back porch and sat down on a soft chair and closed my eyes and began to offer myself Reiki. I pulled in the Divine Light through my crown chakra and I asked for help. I became as focused as I was when I was in labour with my second son. I did not resist the intensity of sensation by entertaining all those insidious thoughts that would have me feeling fear, limitation, self pity. I just stayed focused on the energy that I was allowing to flow through me for my healing. It occurred to me that I may have to go to my room to maintain this focus and leave my friends to meet without me, but as I held my intention, I noticed some relief, in waves. I would have moments when I felt almost normal, and then the intensity would flood my hand like a wave washing back up on shore. But it was moving and shifting and not a steady stream of unbearable sensation. This was encouraging.

There was one moment when my dear friend, Sarita, came out to check on me and after I told her I would just sit there and focus on sending my hand energy, she said with compassion, ‘I am so sorry’. For a flash moment, I teared up and felt sorry for myself, and somehow after half a lifetime of practicing to watch my thoughts and how they make me feel, I was able to shift my attention back on the healing energy that was flowing through me to my hand. Interesting. I shared that moment with them later and expressed how tricky it is to be present and compassion and empathetic for another who is experiencing pain, physical or emotional, without enabling them to stay in it. So often I have wanted another to baby me and comfort me in my condition of pain and suffering. How can we offer acknowledgement and support to another and stay with them where they are without becoming a distraction from them knowing their wellbeing and the potential for their healing? If we give the condition too much attention, are we not helping them to make it more real and solid? How do we lead them into the quantum field of infinite potential and hold the vibration of knowing in the wellbeing that is vibrating in this real realm of reality that we simply cannot see? That was quite an epiphany for me to realize and a divine lesson from this experience that I am certain is a major part of why it manifested in my experience. Pain is a human experience that is inevitable to come and go in our lives, but suffering is always optional. Gratefully, I chose not to suffer this time.

So, as they chatted cheerfully inside the house, cutting up the tomato and the honeydew melon, as they would on any other Monday, I was grateful that they were all going along as usual. It gave me the time and focus I needed to send Reiki with intention, in the silence and the healing energy of nature. The natural air and gentle breeze comforted me. I continued to ride the waves of sensation without entertaining much thought other than the simple intention to send and receive Divine Love and energy into my hand and my heart.

When Reshuet, came out on the porch with her food, I was happy to have them join me at that point. I was able to be a part of the meeting, even though at the beginning I felt like I was in an altered state. So they ate the delicious frittata responsible for my …condition… and we began to share as I stayed focused on continuing to send energy. For the 3 hours, I was able to sit with them and hold the focus which offered the perfect blend of distraction and intention. You see this group of people and I (except for my mom who was not present that day) have been meeting for 3 years for 3 hours or more every Monday with the pure intention to support ourselves and each other in our process of Spiritual Awakening. So what better environment to be in for this intensive process of healing. We have cultivated a vibration of intention and an awakened mind as a group, that was the perfect support I needed to stay in Love and not fear. I believe this is an essential ingredient in accessing the frequency that heals.

Throughout that time I noticed the redness diminishing considerably in different areas of the hand. I was able to see and feel the most intense spots on the hand where the burn was. In the cradle of my grip between the thumb and pointer finger was most painful and the other three fingertips were the most red and sensitive. All those spots looked as thought some blistering may be forming, but as I sat there, the hand began to morph. By the end of the meeting I showed them my hand. It was truly a miracle that perhaps only I will truly know and realize the significance of. Having been burned in the past I know the potential route that burns take. The painful sensations tend to linger for days and the blistering, the peeling, the redness and rawness can last for days and weeks even. I would have to avoid water and all the many activities involving water would be a challenge. I certainly would not be typing, as I am now. You know what I mean. It would offer a whole different lesson, from the one I am experiencing now.

They all could see the improvement, especially Bradely who got a good look at it in the beginning. I was pretty excited, because not only did it look good, it felt good. The burning sensation and sensitivity to the worst spots rapidly improved as I tested them by touching them. It was truly a miracle. I have never experienced anything like that! While the skin was looking better and better throughout the day, it was still a bit tender and I was wiped out. Exhausted, I took a nap. It was my nephew’s birthday and we had planned to meet them for dinner, so I rallied and went, and while I was still protective of the hand that felt like it was healing from the outside in, I was able to enjoy the evening.

By the next day my hand was completely healed. I was able to do all the things I normally do. I showered, washed some dishes, worked in my shop that was fairly busy, I typed.
The only things that I did other than the Reiki to help heal my hand, was to apply the burn cream a couple times, sip on a glass of water with Rescue Remedy in it (flower essence 5 flower blend for trauma) and for maybe 5 minutes I put some ice on it. I never like icing because of the pain I feel when I take it off.

I know for a fact that the source of my healing is primarily the intention and focus I held in order to allow the Reiki energy to flow through and to me. It was the giving and receiving of Divine Love. It was accessing the quantum realm of infinite possibility. It was supported by an environment and community that is able to access this consciousness as well. I also know that the Divine in me, the Soul of my being, and the spirit guides who have been working with me on my accelerated course for healing work with others, offered me this Divine gift to know this truth, through personal experience. If there was any doubt of the efficacy of healing touch through Reiki coupled with focus of intention, than it has been erased. For this I am deeply grateful. No more red hot holy lessons for now, please! I got it. Thank you.

Afterward:

Often healing is not this rapid. Most of the time it is a gradual process and I think this is because some conditions take much longer to become manifested in our bodies. It can be years and maybe even lifetimes that a condition has been developing. The body or mind than erupts with a disease or emotional state that seems to have come out of no where, but in reality it has been developing for quite some time and maybe we have ignored the earlier indicators of being out of alignment. I believe that always the condition is part of our process of awakening. It offers us the opportunity to awaken to something essential, even if it does not mean staying in the body.

An acute condition such as mine with the burn, could have been a disaster, but was addressed immediately, and was not born of an old chronic pattern of thought, but was offered as an opportunity for me to practice my healing art, my mindfulness, my faith. I give thanks that this divine opportunity was not so dramatic as the one that Dr. Dispenza author of ‘You are the Placebo’ had as a young man when he was hit by a truck while cycling in a triathlon. He broke his spine in several spots and rather than getting the surgery that would require a rod inserted into his spine and a life of chronic pain, he chose to heal himself. That was dramatic and it dramatically affected the trajectory of his life’s work. It became his Divine opportunity.

So wherever we are on this journey of awakening to the power within us to tune in to the Divine Light, the Quantum field, the Source of all creation, God’s healing love and all that it has to offer us, we are all already there in some way, because it is this Energy that we are made of. It is the essence of our being and with awareness, faith and practice, we can access it whenever we desire. This is when miracles happen and the magic of our life will delight us with unending expressions of our Divine nature and our deep sweet connection to all of Life…even when it comes in the form of a blistering burn on the hand to be healed in a miraculous way.

Beki

Compassion

IMG_2584This is an excerpt from my unpublished book, a spiritual memoir about Awakening.

Compassion is a feeling, an e-motion that moves us into connection with another that is suffering. Compassion dares to wade in the water of pain to touch the one who is submersed, unsure of whether she will drown. It caresses her and sits with her in the watery depths of despair, breathing enough oxygen for both of them, being mindful to keep its head above the water. Compassion is fearless in its willingness to be present in the pain that so often elicits humanity to its threshold. It knows its connection to Divine sustenance, and takes that knowing with it when it enters the frays of human disconnection. It leans into the dark hole of forgetfulness, connecting to its own humanness to connect the one who weeps, to the world of infinite love and wisdom. Compassion sits comfortably with the sadness and holds gently the bereaved. It opens human heart to hold the fullness of her sweet pain and transforms it into the Love that it truly is.

Compassion is the human expression of Divine Love. It is the delicious connection to humanity and sensation. It is the flesh of love that binds us to each other. It offers the visceral awareness that we are truly One.

The challenge with compassion arises when we unconsciously choose compassion over alignment with Source/Self. While compassion delivers us to the heart and soul of human connection, if we are not awake in our empathy, we may drown in a perception of another’s pain forgetting not only their intrinsic wellbeing that lies at the core of all beings, but we may be swept away in the current of another’s disconnection, risking our own stability which is often the very thing necessary to support the other in their resurfacing and realignment with their True Self. We must temper our propensity to dive into the depths of someone else’s despair when our nature leans towards compassion, and remember to keep our head above water.

I notice when I am feeling lost and unaligned that the peaceful strong energy of my mother, my husband, a friend, is much more comforting than someone who commiserates with me in my story of pain. Yet, I do not want them to pull me out of my emotions with the likes of a cheerleader on the sidelines coaxing me to joy, prematurely. I am grateful when they step into the space where I am, with their love and reverence for the process I am experiencing, honoring my pain, but not joining it. I am grateful when they sit quietly as I weep and I can feel their strong knowing that I am well, that I will feel well again, even when it seems impossible to me in that moment.

I choose to cultivate within me, this perfect blend between the compassion that dares to lean into the heart of human suffering and the mindfulness of staying awake and connected while reaching into this space of dark beauty, staying grounded in knowing the wellbeing of the other and of myself. I choose to be intimate with life, with my human nature, and I choose to be fierce in my commitment to alignment with my Divine nature. As I continue the practice of Unconditional Love, that knows love in all conditions, I am confident that my ability to remain in alignment while compassionately connecting with another who is not, will grow and blossom.

Rich Mother

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Rich mother
With very little money
Rich
Regardless of the condition of money being present.

Like unconditional love
Love,
Regardless of the conditions that are present.

A mother who taught me what it is to be rich
With or without the tangible manifestation of
Money.

She teases about going to the ‘Ocean Course’,
When I am taking care of her
When she becomes to…something…to take care of herself.
We laugh that I may put her on a budget and
That the extravagance of the plush beach resort restaurant
Will be too much for me to afford for her.

My heart smiles
And I think what a joy, pleasure and honor it would be to
Take her to her favorite place that feeds her soul
with food drenched in island sun
and an eyeful of sea-full splendor.

To be rich is to know you are worthy
Of such beauty
Such art
Regardless of how much money you have in your wallet or bank account.

To be rich is to live in a humble dwelling
and make it into a royal palace
of sacred opulent beauty
Infused with the divine
Emanating from objects reflecting consciousness
Art on every wall
Created by her
By me
Her grandson.

To be rich is to wake up each morning in this beautiful
Warm glow of spirit
Surrounding
Enveloping
And oozing from
you
Her
me.

To be rich is to know how to live Unconditional Love
To Love without condition
aware of
Connected to
The Divine Love
That we all are
No matter what shows up in our experience.

Opulence beyond your imagination
Living from the very core of your Soul
Where we are in communion with the realm of the Divine,
The Infinite Field of Possibility and Unconditional Love.

This is the rich soil
From which my being originates
In the dark soil of the Great Mother
and the sweet awakening spirit
Of the earth mother
Who knew her worth at a core level
Even when she was not aware of it.

So yes
My sweet matriarch, crone and wise woman
I will take you to the beautiful place that makes your heart sing
And I will breathe in the scent of salt air
and savor the bread pudding
Soaking up the sweet spirit of your soul
That has nurtured and given me permission to be
Worthy of the deep, delicious connection with my soul.

Life is so Rich
I can barely contain myself!

(The picture is of my mother with her 3 daughters)

The Magic of BACH FLOWER ESSENCES

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“Healer” oil on canvas

 

I discovered the amazing magical energies of the Flower Essences several years ago when I was looking for some relief from emotions related to patterns of thought that caused fear, worry and anxiety within me. I had been worrying about my oldest son since he was a baby. I thought maybe it was normal to worry and be fearful for his wellbeing…the mother disease. While he definitely inspired more reasons later on in his life to make me worry, I realized with my other two sons that the chronic worry I had developed with the first son, was not nearly as acute with them.

So in a quest to find a natural way to bring harmony and balance for both myself and my son, I came upon the flowers! I couldn’t believe that it took so long for Life to bring them to me. I have been painting the ‘essence’ of flowers for 20 years or more, and then they came to me in the form of miracle drops. Some people think that they are essential oils or aromatherapy, but they are more like homeopathy, that you take internally. They could be qualified as vibrational medicine, which is completely natural and safe and can be used as a complementary treatment. As I studied more about them and learned the philosophy of the creator of the essences, Dr. Edward Bach, I was hooked. I wanted to know more. So I immersed myself in the information available and invested in a kit of all the 38 remedies and started treating myself, my family and friends. Eventually, through word of mouth, more people asked for consultations and now the ‘practice’ has evolved to include an integrative healing session with the Flowers, using guidance through the Akashic Records, and Reiki. I have always loved to support people in their process of healing and awakening to their true self. Now I have a creative and beautiful way to enter into sacred space with others and offer them a way to find some relief from life’s many stressors.

The Bach Flowers are very specific in treating different aspects of disharmony that plague the human mind. The remedy that offered me relief from the chronic worry for my son was Red Chestnut. Mimulus helped me work through fears, particularly of public speaking, combined with Larch for confidence. I offered pine to my youngest son, as he was always feeling responsible for anything the went wrong, even if he had nothing to do with it. Pine is for self-blame and offers the ability to feel more self-compassion. The flowers work on the subtle vibrational body, by flooding the ‘virtuous’ qualities into the energy field of the person and gently shifting the pattern into one that is in harmony and alignment with the True Self, our Soul. The process can be gradual but profound as it was for me. Sometimes it is dramatic and immediate. The effects can be long lasting and permanent. They also can cure the chronic pattern, even though you may occasionally feel worry for instance, but in a more situational way.

So what I offer with my clients is a consultation and healing experience that helps us to determine the perfect mix of flowers to support them in shifting into an experience with life that offers more joy, ease, freedom, purpose, authenticity, peace, creativity. The possibilities for what alignment looks like for one is endless and so exciting. Like the Soul Portrait, the unfolding through Divine guidance and deep compassion, is utterly creative and magical.

Please give me a call if you are interested in experiencing this magical transformation!

~beki

Www.bekiart.com

SOUL Portraits for Others

 

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Now that you know the origins of my first Soul portrait, I would like to share with you the evolution of this approach to my art and the manifestations of Soul Portraits that are painted while intentionally opening the Akashic Record of the individual for the purpose of bringing forth an image that reflects the essence of their Soul. It is so powerful to go beyond the form that we have identified with and for most of us have become attached to as an expression of who we really are.

The Soul portrait, in a sense, frees us from this limited self perception and takes us beyond our prejudices and cultural, societal conditioning. Each portrait is uniquely created and inspired by your Soul through me. I am the channel, the vehicle through which this visual communication flows. I am utterly amazed, humbled and delighted by what emerges on the canvas. I am deeply honored and aware of the sacred journey I am on as I move into this Divine Realm of the Akashic Field. Each experience with the process is unique and the sensation in my body as well as my approach to creating the piece is distinctly different with each portrait. I have no idea what will emerge. I am curious that not one has come forth as completely abstract, yet, although I suspect it may at some point.

What I do feel certain of is that what comes forth is purely Divine in nature and is specifically for the one that I am painting it for. The message that their Soul desires to offer them comes through in the perfect way in which it will speak intimately to them. It’s offering will be ongoing and layered as one lives with the portrait, as it is vibrational in nature and will take one beyond the visual, while using the tangibility of the image at the same time, to transform and awaken.

I am sharing with you some samples of the Soul Portraits that I also have published on my website with pictures of the human version of them along with a statement by them about their experience with the Soul Portrait. Included is my Soul self-portrait that I was instructed to create, while in my own Akashic Records, as my first assignment for beginning this work for others. I received this ‘idea’ and guidance by my own Masters through the Records, while in session with my wonderful and deeply tuned-in healer and mentor, Chrys Franks.

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If you think you would be interested in having your Soul painted in this profound way, please email me or give me a call for more information.
Bekicrowell@hotmail.com
843~460~4077

AWAKENING : my first Soul Portrait

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I am very excited to be starting my first blog as I am launching my new website to reflect my personal, spiritual and professional evolution over the past 10 years since I created my last website that was a showcase for my work as an artist. Now, I embark on a powerful new chapter in my life as I bring together my passion for spiritual matters, vibrational healing, Awakening to your Divine Self, creative and artistic expression through writing and painting. I feel as though I have come to a crossroads where all my interests have found a synergy like never before. Launching my new website http://www.bekiart.com is my way of really stepping in to this new innovative approach to my work and what I feel is truly my life purpose.

My name is Beki. I am in my 50th year of life, in this physical incarnation and I am feeling that this will be one of the most amazing ones yet! I have been creating art my whole life. When I was 17 years old, I painted the piece of art that made me know that I was an ‘artist’. You may think this is rather young, but already I had sold some pieces while in high school and had been in a couple art shows. I went to high school in Nassau, Bahamas where my mom was my art teacher. I graduated when I was 16 and was in University in Windsor, Ontario, where my dad taught social ethics and human rights, when I began my divine journey into ‘Soul Art’.

I went to visit my mom in Ohio, where she lived at the time, and she instructed me to paint without using a reference to copy from. She called it the ‘meditative method’. Essentially she asked me to paint purely for the process and not the end product. She gave me a walkman with earphones, canvas on an easel, paints and left the house. The magic words were, ‘and you don’t even have to show it to me when you are done’. That freed me up. I really had not realized how much my self-worth was wrapped up in receiving praise from my art.

I went into a meditation, which she had trained us to do in high school, but I rarely did, turned up the music and got lost in another dimension. I painted for three hours completely present to the moment.  I felt this freedom and exhilaration as I watched  the image emerge on the canvas. I had found my authentic voice and it was one that came from what I now know is my SOUL. Once my soul found her way to my canvas she never left me. I never went back to the old way of creating art for approval and the more realistic approach to painting quickly dwindled. This was truly the beginning of my creating Soul Art, painting from the soul for the soul. Every time I sat to the blank canvas I opened up to this Divine force, and waited for the guidance. It always came, and what I noticed was that the more I ‘got out of the way’ the happier I was with the process and the creation.

At the time I named this painting ‘Silent Scream’ and more recently renamed her ‘Awakening’. Interestingly, while her scream was inaudible, my Soul had found her voice in the bold, fierce, sensual, intensity that was undeniably palpable and wildly vibrant! She would be seen and felt from this point on. Now, from my evolved vantage point, I realize that this image reflects the ‘Awakening’ that had occurred in me in that moment. I had become Awakened to my very own Soul.

My artistic process has been the most invaluable tool in preparing for the work I have embarked on and am now ready to share with you and the world. Little did I know that day in my mom’s small kitchen studio, 33 years ago, that I had painted my first Soul (self)Portrait, and that I would be divinely guided to create Soul Portraits for others so that they could be revealed and Awakened to their Divine Self for their healing and spiritual evolution in the most profound and creative way.

The way in which I am able to activate this unique process is by accessing the Soul of the person by opening their Akashic Record for the purpose of creating this portrait. I have been training in this work for many years through ‘spirit writing’ and more recently have been practicing this work while consulting people with the Bach Flower Essences. The Akashic Records essentially are an etheric ‘record’ of the soul, from inception, containing the information of all thoughts, feelings and actions, past present and potential future. While my access to the Divine Realm during painting is completely natural and assured, this ritual of opening the Records is extremely powerful and poignant in accessing the specific information for this particular being.

The irony of this latest development in my artistic and spiritual evolution, is that I specifically stayed away from the notion of painting portraits, because I felt it was too much about pleasing others by creating a depiction of them that they were happy with. After my Awakening with my art, I never again painted for approval and portrait art seemed the antithesis of my Soul art. You see, my mother is a brilliant portrait artist. She is able to capture more than the outer appearance of her subject and truly has a gift of bringing forth the inner being while creating a realistic rendition of their physical self. She even created a process called portrait therapy, that engages the person during the process of creating their emerging image on canvas. Still, I had an aversion to the thought of doing a commissioned piece of work, especially a portrait, because people can really get caught in their ego when it comes to self image.

Well obviously, the Universe had different plans for me, and found a way to bring my work to the personal and intimate exchange with another through the egoless approach to portrait art by surpassing the human physical image altogether and entering the magical realm of depicting the ethereal and intangible Soul Self in a palpable visual and utterly creative expression. In truth, I am channeling the Soul’s depiction of Itself for itself. In order to receive the fullness and potency of this offering, the ego must be set aside. Profound reunion with your Soul is then possible.

So this is just one aspect of the brilliant unfolding and Awakening that is occurring in my life right now, and I look forward to sharing more with you in this blog format as well as through my new website that my wonderful and creative husband, Sherman helped me to create. I am so blessed and grateful to all those who have shared in this beautiful journey of this human experience with me and for the divine guidance that has always been with me and that I am becoming more and more aware of each day.

Please go to my beautiful website and explore the wonders of vibrant color, sensual expressions, spiritual healing and inspired evolution. There, you will see samples of the Soul portraits and more.

http://www.bekiart.com

In deep gratitude for the Divine realm of infinite possibility and Unconditional Love

beki