BEAUTY

ONE oil on canvas by Beki

12.3.2020

My Divine Guidance (DG) has repeatedly urged me to stay focused on Beauty. “Seek, see and feel beauty everywhere and in everything, especially where it is hard to see”, they would say to me over and over again. I write every morning and commune with this DG and the clarity of their message is unmistakable and consistent.

In times like these, well, in all times on earth, it may seem irresponsible or Pollyanna or spiritual-bypassing to not focus on the very serious conditions we face as humanity plows down a perilous road towards extinction. As a daughter of social activists, I am acutely aware of many of the perils and injustices we face. I have been trained into this awareness and have cultivated a sense of social responsibility, along with a natural compassion for the suffering of others. As an empath, I have felt in my body, and my heart the achy pain that I perceive the other is encountering. The urge to jump in and rally against the injustices bubbles in me, and yet for as long as I remember something in me has pulled me back, restraining me from the urge. When I was younger it was my shyness and terror of public speaking that made it virtually impossible to speak up.

Now I understand what I didn’t then. Now as I feel more freedom in my voice and confidence to share my thoughts and passion with spoken words, I also have a deeper connection to the Inner Voice of my Divine Self and the Infinite Intelligence that guides me. It keeps telling me that the way of the social activist is not my path. In lives lived in a different time and space I experienced myself as a passionate activist fighting for change. My DG consistently tells me that in this life I am meant to take a different path. I was given the physical and emotional constitution that would discourage me from entering the outer struggle for social justice, yet my desire for transformation in the human collective reality would continue to inform my life and desires.

This path of the sacred activist, the holder of Beauty, is what is being revealed to me, as a way to channel this deep desire and passion I feel for serving to uplift humanity and restore wellbeing to our bodies and the earth. I realize that there are many ways to affect change and if we follow our deepest most inner guidance then we will know what our most authentic path is.

I share my path with you, in case you too may be called to a different path from what perhaps you felt drawn to based on the culture of your family or society. You may feel confused or lost as to how to be most authentically you while mining the expectations you perceive as hindering you. Once we find our authentic, natural way of being, feeling, expressing, then we begin to connect with the guidance that informs us of the perfect path for us. This is the path that becomes the most profoundly powerful gift we have to offer the collective for our evolution and expansion.

My DG repeatedly reminds me of the importance of my path: the path of Beauty. For, if I can master the art of seeing and feeling Beauty in All then I am able to see through this the eyes of the Divine. I am able to remind myself and others of the true nature of Life, of our Beingness. I am able to know that our very essence is Beauty and Love. If I can see this essential nature, then I become a revealer of this Beauty. I become a mirror, a reminder for the other to remember, re-member, so they may know their wholeness and interconnection with all of Life. This is key to ending the suffering within, and when we no longer suffer we act and live from the Love that we are.

As I walk this sacred path of remembering I am challenged to look away from what seems like the obvious, so that I can tune my receptors to the frequencies not so easily seen or felt. I must train myself to sense the subtle, invisible dimension from which all form emerges. This is the creative and infinite field of possibility. As I have honed my sensitivity to this dimension it is increasingly intense in its palpability. It is teeming with energy that gives my body ripples of resonance-bumps and electric sensations. This dimension is not the land of “ignorance is bliss”, nor the cool, yet suffocating, ‘head in the sand’ land. It is a dimension that is more real than the one that we perceive with our physical senses.

At a subatomic level, everything that we perceive as matter is actually “99.9999999999999% empty space.” I first learned this when I read You Are the Placebo by Dr. Joe Dispenza. When I read the chapter, The Quantum Mind, I cried, because for the first time I really felt I understood this very complex concept within the study of Quantum physics. My quantum mind opened up. He continues to say:

“But, that space isn’t really empty. It’s actually filled with energy. More specifically, it’s made up of a vast array of energy frequencies that form a kind of invisible, interconnected field of information. So if every atom is 99.999999999999% energy or information that means that our known universe and everything in it —no matter how solid that matter may appear to us — is essentially just energy and information. That’s a scientific fact.”

He goes on to describe the “Observer Effect”, which is another quantum reality in which scientists have discovered “that physical matter cannot exist or manifest until we observe it—until we notice or give it our attention. And when we are no longer paying attention to it, it vanishes, going back from whence it came. So matter is constantly transforming, oscillating between manifesting into matter and disappearing into energy.”

So when I speak of the unseen dimension, the dark void of infinite possibility, I am not simply being philosophical, poetic, or spiritual. I am, like many mystics and healers for before me, describing a literal reality that only in the last century or so science is evolving to catch up with this ancient knowing. It is a very exciting time.

So the sacred practice of tuning into this dimension, this quantum field, that I consider Divine Creative Source Energy, is no small thing. It is indeed an approach to transforming matter/reality. It requires a great deal of focus, intention, and awareness not to be distracted by the world of matter and form, especially when we find it unacceptable, deplorable, or dangerous. To ‘turn the other cheek’ takes great discipline and is a feat accomplished by few. The masters of our human race, such as our beloved Jesus, Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr. were able to hold steadfast in the sacred practice of Unconditional Love, which required them to stay fully aligned to Love regardless of the unwanted conditions. They understood, at some level, that to become consumed by the condition would hinder them from realizing the reality they sought to embody and see reflected in the world of form.

This path of the sacred activist can give birth to the social activist or vice versa, and often the two are exclusively practiced, depending on the nature of the individual. Both are critical parts of the whole and both are equally beautiful expressions of the Soul. When we are true to our own unique nature we are able to find our authentic path and realize our inner power. This is an individual awakening and the journey is a solo one. While we can elicit support, just as our journey through the birth canal and our journey through the death process, is essentially a solo experience, so is our journey of awakening.

We now sit at the precipice of a new possibility of a new world, that can be created either by observing the myriad of distracting realities or by creating something completely new by the focus of our desires, our intentions, and the essence of our true Divine nature which is Love. Let us use our awareness of that which is unwanted as the fodder to fuel the desire. But let us not become disillusioned or keep our attention on that which fuels fear and despair. We must keep our wits about us if we are to create, from the Infinite Quantum Field, the reality we want for ourselves and our global family. It is the time of many masters, not just a few. It is time to take our heads out of the sand and put our minds and hearts on the work of seeing a new possibility.

This requires removing our attention from what is and trusting and knowing that we can co-create from no thing, the things of matter that matter most to us. So know this, your dreaming, imagining, and feeling into the joy, freedom, peace, beauty, wisdom, and Love that you desire to see and be felt in the world, is truly a powerful approach to effecting change. It is the fuel of creation and transformation.

So play, dance, create, meditate, collaborate, envision! And, by all means, seek, see and feel beauty everywhere and especially where it is hard to see it.

In Love and Oneness
I am

Celebrate What’s Right With The World
A TED talk with Dewitt Jones
 

“Change Your Lens, Change Your Perspective”

Enjoy this video that reminds us of the BEAUTY that is everywhere!

Weathering Flo

Interestingly, just one year ago I posted a blog about navigating Hurricane Irma. Now my muse is Flo, and she inspired this expression of my inner contemplation. We keep getting the opportunity to face life’s challenges and to see how we have evolved. 

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Painting: The Vortex, oil on canvas by Beki

Sept. 16, 2018

Years ago I stopped watching TV and especially avoided mainstream news sources. My choice to do so was a response to my own Inner Guidance System (IGS) that is always sending signals of what actions to take and decisions to make. It is tailored for me. Indicators are offered by how I feel and the only way I can get an accurate read, is by removing myself from the outside hurricane, and enter into the stillness and quiet of my own inner connection to the Divine. Long ago, my IGS sent me the message that I was to remove myself from the outer storm in order for me to find the Eye/I of my inner being, which is Peace.

I trust that I will receive the information I need to make an aligned and wise decision, without entering the fray of media and its unsavory approach to sensationalizing the facts and science with way too much extraneous data. The media is emotionally manipulative and I simply do not want to put myself through that mental/emotional storm, especially in the middle of a literal one!

Hurricane Flo(rence)just passed us by. She whirled and danced out at sea for many many days and the mental storm began as the reporters and politicians built up the emotional drama that obscured so many of us from the simple facts of an unfolding track of when and where the storm would hit the Southeastern coast of the United States. As a resident of Charleston, SC, I am accustomed to the threats of hurricanes, and we often sit and observe the possibilities of the forces of nature heading our way, like the slave ships from the middle passage. I always feel this eery awareness of the track these hurricanes take, following a profoundly painful storm of emotion from captive African people past, traversing the Atlantic, not knowing what lied ahead. Could it be that these wild and powerful winds that take this path, are cleansing the auric field of the waters of our earth, to release the pain and trauma held in this part of the body of our great Mother?

As a vibrational healer, that uses the healing modality of Reiki, a form of healing touch, to help shift blocked energy in the body of the client, I have experienced how people store trauma in different parts of their physical and etheric bodies. The energy needs to be moved, shaken up, acknowledged, and felt, so that is can be released, transmuted, transformed. Could it be that the winds of nature are cleansing the blocked energies that are held in the earth and in the consciousness of humanity?

What I am most interested in contemplating right now, is how we can weather the emotional mental storms that come our way. How do we navigate the assaults that seem to come from outside of us and we have no control of? How do we find the peace in the chaos, and find our inner Eye/I of the hurricane?

Charleston was virtually untouched by the physical storm for the most part. A mandatory evacuation was ordered on Monday September 10th, which truly was too soon to really predict the path of Florence. Today it is Sunday, almost a week later, and we have barely gotten any rain. Hysteria began and the inner storm in the minds of the people on the coast raged, especially as they sat in front of TVs for hours of non-stop coverage, that espoused emotional language that would undoubtedly incite fear. Words like a “Beast of a storm’, ‘ a monster’, ‘the storm of a lifetime.’ I got glimpses of the onslaught. I retreated the best I could, and attempted to meditate, and listen to the Divine Guidance within me that never steers me wrong. It was challenging, but I managed pretty good, to still feel the Peace of my soul. I consulted sources that were offering information without the drama, so that we could make decisions based on fact, and not the fear-based emotions that whirled around me.

The dance of Flo was unpredictable and as it is with most forces of nature, she reminded us that we are really not in control. We can do our best to try to predict and control the world around us, but the deeper lesson for me from Flo is that I best learn to go with the flow, or I will be whirling around in a mental storm that robs me of the very Peace that I AM. Flo is a reminder of how we are always navigating these mental storms and that with intention and consciousness, we can commit to the Peace that resides at the center of all hurricanes. The peace that resides at the center of our own being. If we cultivate this commitment to Inner Peace then when we embark out into the whirling chaos of the world, we can bring this powerful force of Divine nature with us, and we can indeed have a positive influence on the climate around us.

I am grateful for Flo, and all the hurricanes of life, that prompt me to practice Peace with deep intention and focus. I am grateful that I did not need to experience the Eye of Flo this time but received her gift in a gentle way. Each of us affected by the presence of Flo whirling towards our coast, had our own personal experience. Some lives were impacted in very profound and tangible ways, with physical loss involved. More of us were pulled into the mental and emotional storm to weather in our own way.

How did you weather the storm? Can you see the gift she left at your doorstep? How will you BE the next time you encounter a storm, whether it is literal of metaphorical? I encourage you to seize this opportunity to contemplate these questions, so that you may ride the wave of the alchemy that is offered by all of life’s challenges.

In Love and Oneness and deep gratitude,

Beki

The Inner Hurricane

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‘Eye of the Storm” oil on canvas, Beki

This has week has been utterly exhausting emotionally and mentally, as we and many more in the Caribbean, Florida and the South Eastern US have been watching the strongest biggest storm on record to plough its way through the waters crushing islands and threatening our safety, stuff and peace of mind.

Peace of mind is what I really want to address here. How do we cultivate an aptitude to inner peace, so that when life’s hurricanes, literally or figuratively, threaten our wellbeing, we are able to respond from peace rather than fear? Today is 9/11, an infamous day here in the US when the Twin Towers in New York City were reduced to rubble after 2 planes intentionally flew into them. It was shocking and devastating and rocked the sense of security Americans had felt in regards to such attacks. It shattered a collective sense of comfort and maybe a false peace of mind. 911 are the number we dial to call for HELP.

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How can we dial directly to the help that taps into the peace of mind that allows us to weather any storm that life delivers to us? Yesterday, in the midst of this whole experience of preparing for Hurricane Irma that was slowly turning west away from us, revealing that the personal threat to our town and home would be minimal, I grappled with my own inner storm. I woke up at 3 am to find my two sons and nephew ‘mesmerized’ in playing computer games together. It triggered a mini storm in my head that I seemed incapable of quelling. My initial internal venting entailed feelings of anger, indignation, irritation, hopelessness for humanity and the obsession with these glowing screens that give us this false sense of connection with each other, but actually rob us of the connection with the organic world of human contact and the beautiful earth we inhabit. Yes I went there! As a mother of 3 sons I have grappled with this feeling of frustration around the whole issue of video games and such for 20 years. It has definitely been one of those reoccurring concerns/thorns that has contributed to taking away my Inner Peace, uncountable times. Needless to say, the inner storm amidst the outer storm robbed me of much needed sleep.

I don’t want to focus so much on the issue of glowing screens here. What I am really interested in is the inner storms that can be triggered by thousands of stressful thoughts. Usually the thought is aligned with fear. Certainly the discomfort felt in preparing for a hurricane and watching the media coverage around the storm has the potential to cause as much angst as riding out the storm itself. It is the projection of a devastating future, fear future, that grips us. With the modern conveniences of glowing screens 24 hours a day, we have this thought that somehow we can control the outcomes by listening to the confusing, mixed messages offered, whether it is about the weather or diseases or politics. We cling to the messages hoping they will provide us with the guidance that will solve the problems that face humanity. Secretly we wish for the guidance to quell the storm in our mind, possibly even more than the condition that is causing it. Of course the true guidance we seek can only be found in the silencing of the fear-based chatter and to go to the True Source of all solutions.

Suffering stems from the thoughts, not the reality. I have suffered on and off this past week as we navigated the information about this outer storm. There were times I was able to consciously focus on peace and stayed away from the media as much as possible, but still would catch wind of fearful frequencies. Well, how could I miss them. The frequencies of the fear blew as strong as Irma’s winds. We are challenged to find a way to the inner peace, the ‘I’ of the storm, that is serene amongst the mayhem of life. This is the greatest challenge of the times, I feel. The distractions are unbelievable! How can we cultivate this Inner Peace instead of feed the fire of the Inner Storm?

While I do not know what the ultimate answer is for that question, I do know that I am on a journey of answering that for myself. Each of us needs to find our own way. It is the awareness and intention that is the first step. As we become aware of the source of our inner storm as the thoughts we think, then we realize that we can intentionally redirect the thoughts. What activity or practice can support you in redirecting thoughts? I walk in nature. I write, I paint. Sometimes meditation helps. Going to sleep is miraculous. What calms your storm? What nurtures the scared inner child? What soothes you back into alignment with the Source of your True Self?

peacePeace’, oil on canvas, by Beki

When I align with Love, with the Divine, with my Inner Being, the unlimited, eternal Self I feel a deep joyful peace. When I feel this peace, I do not feel fear. The two emotions cannot abide together. I recently heard a zen monk say, ” To be fearless really is actually being peaceful.” Unconditional Love is really being able to stay aligned with Love regardless of the conditions. Unconditional Peace, Joy, Love. This is the practice that brings freedom.

When I am able to live more and more from this cultivated, intentional place of unconditional Love, Peace and Joy then not only do I benefit from this freedom, but I have a chance to affect Peace in the world around me, one person at a time. My very presence will then have the potential to quell the storm within another, and another and another.