Weathering Flo

Interestingly, just one year ago I posted a blog about navigating Hurricane Irma. Now my muse is Flo, and she inspired this expression of my inner contemplation. We keep getting the opportunity to face life’s challenges and to see how we have evolved. 

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Painting: The Vortex, oil on canvas by Beki

Sept. 16, 2018

Years ago I stopped watching TV and especially avoided mainstream news sources. My choice to do so was a response to my own Inner Guidance System (IGS) that is always sending signals of what actions to take and decisions to make. It is tailored for me. Indicators are offered by how I feel and the only way I can get an accurate read, is by removing myself from the outside hurricane, and enter into the stillness and quiet of my own inner connection to the Divine. Long ago, my IGS sent me the message that I was to remove myself from the outer storm in order for me to find the Eye/I of my inner being, which is Peace.

I trust that I will receive the information I need to make an aligned and wise decision, without entering the fray of media and its unsavory approach to sensationalizing the facts and science with way too much extraneous data. The media is emotionally manipulative and I simply do not want to put myself through that mental/emotional storm, especially in the middle of a literal one!

Hurricane Flo(rence)just passed us by. She whirled and danced out at sea for many many days and the mental storm began as the reporters and politicians built up the emotional drama that obscured so many of us from the simple facts of an unfolding track of when and where the storm would hit the Southeastern coast of the United States. As a resident of Charleston, SC, I am accustomed to the threats of hurricanes, and we often sit and observe the possibilities of the forces of nature heading our way, like the slave ships from the middle passage. I always feel this eery awareness of the track these hurricanes take, following a profoundly painful storm of emotion from captive African people past, traversing the Atlantic, not knowing what lied ahead. Could it be that these wild and powerful winds that take this path, are cleansing the auric field of the waters of our earth, to release the pain and trauma held in this part of the body of our great Mother?

As a vibrational healer, that uses the healing modality of Reiki, a form of healing touch, to help shift blocked energy in the body of the client, I have experienced how people store trauma in different parts of their physical and etheric bodies. The energy needs to be moved, shaken up, acknowledged, and felt, so that is can be released, transmuted, transformed. Could it be that the winds of nature are cleansing the blocked energies that are held in the earth and in the consciousness of humanity?

What I am most interested in contemplating right now, is how we can weather the emotional mental storms that come our way. How do we navigate the assaults that seem to come from outside of us and we have no control of? How do we find the peace in the chaos, and find our inner Eye/I of the hurricane?

Charleston was virtually untouched by the physical storm for the most part. A mandatory evacuation was ordered on Monday September 10th, which truly was too soon to really predict the path of Florence. Today it is Sunday, almost a week later, and we have barely gotten any rain. Hysteria began and the inner storm in the minds of the people on the coast raged, especially as they sat in front of TVs for hours of non-stop coverage, that espoused emotional language that would undoubtedly incite fear. Words like a “Beast of a storm’, ‘ a monster’, ‘the storm of a lifetime.’ I got glimpses of the onslaught. I retreated the best I could, and attempted to meditate, and listen to the Divine Guidance within me that never steers me wrong. It was challenging, but I managed pretty good, to still feel the Peace of my soul. I consulted sources that were offering information without the drama, so that we could make decisions based on fact, and not the fear-based emotions that whirled around me.

The dance of Flo was unpredictable and as it is with most forces of nature, she reminded us that we are really not in control. We can do our best to try to predict and control the world around us, but the deeper lesson for me from Flo is that I best learn to go with the flow, or I will be whirling around in a mental storm that robs me of the very Peace that I AM. Flo is a reminder of how we are always navigating these mental storms and that with intention and consciousness, we can commit to the Peace that resides at the center of all hurricanes. The peace that resides at the center of our own being. If we cultivate this commitment to Inner Peace then when we embark out into the whirling chaos of the world, we can bring this powerful force of Divine nature with us, and we can indeed have a positive influence on the climate around us.

I am grateful for Flo, and all the hurricanes of life, that prompt me to practice Peace with deep intention and focus. I am grateful that I did not need to experience the Eye of Flo this time but received her gift in a gentle way. Each of us affected by the presence of Flo whirling towards our coast, had our own personal experience. Some lives were impacted in very profound and tangible ways, with physical loss involved. More of us were pulled into the mental and emotional storm to weather in our own way.

How did you weather the storm? Can you see the gift she left at your doorstep? How will you BE the next time you encounter a storm, whether it is literal of metaphorical? I encourage you to seize this opportunity to contemplate these questions, so that you may ride the wave of the alchemy that is offered by all of life’s challenges.

In Love and Oneness and deep gratitude,

Beki

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The Alchemy of the Solar Eclipse

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8/7/2017 the day of the lunar eclipse.

The Solar Eclipse poised to make itself visible to the United States of America from the west to the east coast on August 21, 2017 promises to bring with it the alchemical element of Fire. Last night at Utopia, my little boutique in downtown Charleston, we hosted a ‘Spirit Talk’ with astrologist, Peter Lanzillotta, offering his observations of the significance of this auspicious celestial activity. Charleston is in the path of ‘totality’ at the most ‘dynamic’ place of the eclipse as it exits the country going off to sea. While he did not use the word ‘auspicious’ to describe this eclipse, to those of us who see the sacred alchemy in the ‘dark night of the Soul’, we sensed and felt the pregnant potential in this fiery event. He made it clear that the frequencies of this eclipse are absolutely, by virtue of the astrological calculations, a firestorm of burning potential. After presenting us with the ‘facts’ illustrated in the charts that revealed a wealth of interesting and intriguing information, we were left with more of a sense of doomsday, rather than what I expected would be a discourse in utilizing the frequencies delivered by this eclipse to initiate a powerful and alchemical transformation on both a personal and collective level.

Yet, a sweet seed of possibility was planted and the deeper awareness of what had been offered sprouted in our Awakening meeting the next morning. For 4 years a group of us have meet for 4 hours weekly to support each other on our intentional journey of Awakening. We have tilled the soil of consciousness, open-heartedness, and commitment to the raw realness that is required to transform and evolve. As we took the time to meditate on what we wanted to receive from the energies offered by this potent eclipse, we all felt the percolating excitement of this cultivated willingness to dive into the fire for the sake of alchemy. We do not shy away from the cauldron of transformation, no matter how uncomfortable it may make us feel. We know the opportunity of this CONTRACTION on a celestial level is big and powerful and if we are willing to ride the wave of its energy,  we can both personally and collectively give birth to the New Way we have all been waiting for.

The Mother Moon is literally covering the Father Sun! It is engulfing the bright light of the prevailing male energies with Her frequencies of the Divine Feminine. In as little as 2.5 minutes or so the impact of this alignment of moon and sun, is said will have the potential of causing cataclysmic events across the country…and possibly globally. However, as I see it, the potential for a potent alchemical reaction is truly what is at hand.

So, the sun, has long represented the masculine energies that are expressed as active, dynamic, material, manifested, hot, dry, fiery, daytime, brightness, focused awareness. The moon, holds the frequencies of the feminine which is receptive, passive, dark, earthy, moist, cool, encompassing, diffused awareness. Think about the difference between the mother and the father.

The prevailing expression of humanity on earth has been imbalanced by male or yang energy, much to the detriment of our planet and all life on it. It is simply time for the balance to be asserted into our collective and personal evolution. If we do not embrace this balancing of the the Divine feminine, than we will not evolve. What that will look like, I do not know. I can only imagine. However it is my intention to focus on the evolution that I see and feel is possible for all of US as we embrace this transformation that the Divine Feminine will usher into our midst.

While it seems that the fiery predictions of this potent eclipse are bringing in more of the masculine frequencies, it is the burning Love of the Divine Father Sun that yields to the cool darkness of the Divine Mother Moon, that is illuminated only when darkness falls, revealing the celestial heavens, and the expanse of the Universe. When the brilliant Sun is shining we cannot see what is held within the darkness, the infinite field of possibility, the quantum realm, the heavenly Galaxies. We are immersed in the illusion of matter, that distracts us from the eternalness of our Inner Being, our Infinite nature. When basking in the illumined reality of the masculine, we are intoxicated by the manifested world to the point that we doubt that anything else beyond this even exists. We question the inner stirrings of Spirit that whisper to us of a world and a Self that expands beyond the breadth of our imaginings. Yet, the blessed Sun of our brilliant earth illuminates only the tip of the iceberg, revealing only a snippet of our Divine True Self that predominately resides within the dark, moist waters of infinite Love, expansive and vast.

This is indeed an auspicious activity of a monumental nature, that has the potential to open a portal to the Divine Feminine through the inescapable burning contractions expected when giving birth to a New Way, a New Day, a beautiful new Being that is balanced in both the energy of Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine. As we collectively transcend the limitations of being one or the other, we are birthing the new human that is a beacon of the integrated One. We are being offered the opportunity to burn away the extraneous and limiting beliefs, thoughts, patterns of polarity consciousness that imagines us as separate clumps of matter and to give birth to the Oneness Consciousness that knows the ‘hidden’ nature of our Essence, that truly is One with All that is.

Within this courageous intention to consciously walk head on into the Fire of this eclipse, we activate the positive potential of transformation that alchemy inspires, transmuting our old archaic, limited self-perception into a powerful new cosmology of an Awakened being that knows It is One with All perceiving and sensing the Unified Field in all that emerges within the manifested world of illusive separateness.

I am excited, just as I was when I prepared for the inevitable birth of my sons, 3 times, knowing that in order to bring this new life forth into this manifested world I so adore, that I would have to walk into the fire of that physical labor that each time held the mystery of the unknown. Would my baby be well, healthy, normal? Would the labor be long, short, back-breaking, easy? Would I be able to deliver naturally in the comfort of my home, or would complications arise requiring me to be transported to the hospital? Would I be able to ride the wave of each contraction with enough surrender to allow the child to come forth without too much trauma or drama? Each time I trembled uncontrollably as the waves of labor took over my body and the fear, awe and excitement was almost too much to bare. Each time I gave birth to a New Son/Sun to be the new male in a world that would, some day in the future, give birth to a New Way that can hold the human that is balanced in male/female energies and live in harmony with all the perceived others, knowing in the depths of our SOULS that there is no other…that we are man and woman and at the same time neither one, and oh so much more.

So I stand poised for this labor, of cataclysmic proportions, wise enough to know that it is simply necessary to yield, surrender, allow, the birth to take its course…to breathe through each contraction and trust…TRUST that I can do this…without drugs, conscious and awake, eyes wide open. Trust that this is a natural part of the process and ALL is well and All will be well no matter what. Trust that I can shed the parts of myself and my story that no longer serves me and I will survive the crumbling of old ways for this New Way. There is nothing to fear. This is the magical process that is as natural as breathing and at the same time as much a miracle as the birth and presence of a new born babe.

Let us enter this Eclipse, this time of transformation with Awe and reverence and courage, sweet family of the earth. Let us re-member that as we walk this earth that we are made of stardust and that we are born of both the Father Sun and the Mother Moon. As the Moon passes over the Sun, let us embrace our Divine celestial parentage and take the seat in the throne of our birthright. For we are the sons and daughters of the Divine One and we are in essence ONE with the Divine All.

In gratitude for the fire…Burn baby burn!

Beki Crowell

Mother Soul

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The following is a beautiful transmission offered to me by my Divine Guidance while I am in my own Akashic Records. Often I open my records and then ask a question to the Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones and then ‘channel’ the answer by writing in my journal. This has been a wonderful and enlightening practice that I have been doing for many years now. It has been very helpful in accessing a deeper wisdom that really is at the core of my being. My Guides work with me to unveil my own knowing. For this I am very grateful. Yesterday was Mother’s Day 2016. This is how I began my day. Sitting on my back porch surrounded by my personal garden paradise, I take a moment to meditate and then open the Akashic Records.

Me: I am feeling an underlying sadness. Not sure what it is all about. Woke up with a little pang of anxiety, something I have not felt in a really long time. I would appreciate your help so I can get some clarity.

MTLO (Masters, Teachers, Loved Ones): Blessings dear child. You are entering a phase of deep remembering. You are holding the heart of mother’s in yours. It is heavy with both sorrow and love. Mother’s weep everywhere for the awakening of this planet’s inhabitants. The Mother Earth holds you all with deep love and care and yet she is incensed by your wild adolescent disregard, your narcissism that renders her lands disrespected.

She is shedding the old you, like the lizard, green like spring leaves, sheds it old skin. She is shaking you up, opening your hearts and piercing the shield that has inebriated your mind, keeping you from recognizing your Soul.

Your Great Mother loves you Unconditionally and embraces the essence of humanity in her massive brown body, weighed down by the waters of her deep blue sea of tears.
She will not forsake you in your childish tantrums, but she will coax you awake with her winds and fires and trembling lands. And if you continue your flailing and screaming your rants of fear, separation, possessiveness, she will erupt mountain tops to bring you back to your senses.

You sense the mother that weeps for her children, as you carry the imprint of the mother gene in every living cell of your body. You know and feel the aching of the earth and your human sisters that yearn for your children to Awaken to the Love that they are. You know the deep desire that the Mother holds to feed her children all that nourishes their bodies, minds and souls.

The Mother Soul you inhabit is not just the human individual self that strives to balance this sacred role on earth, but she is the collective Soul that sits in the core of the earth and is born of the Divine Feminine.

This Mother Soul is wild and sensual, fierce and determined. She is soft and nurturing, steady and committed. She is utterly creative and her strength is unrivaled in the Universe.

Today on this day that the Mother is honored, you feel her Heart in your heart and your desire to weep is the yearning to release all the fullness that overflows the great breadth of her loving chalice.

Your own vessel cannot hold the massiveness of love and gratitude that you feel for the Mother Soul. It cannot contain the tendrils of her Love that reach out like roots extending to the core of the earth.

You yourself born of mother, belong to the mother, just as you are mother yourself. The intricate web of love embodied by the Divine Feminine courses through your veins and roots you to her heart.

Surrender to her, for she will nurture you and guide you and prepare you for your flight. Let go and trust, for she is the bridge between the Unlimited Divine and the brilliant flesh of life. She will show you how to live on earth embodied by your Soul. She will show you the Divine, living within the manifested world.

And when you surrender to her love, her wisdom, you will at last, be free!

Happy Mother’s Day beautiful Soul Mother. We honor and celebrate you in all ways!

Compassion

IMG_2584This is an excerpt from my unpublished book, a spiritual memoir about Awakening.

Compassion is a feeling, an e-motion that moves us into connection with another that is suffering. Compassion dares to wade in the water of pain to touch the one who is submersed, unsure of whether she will drown. It caresses her and sits with her in the watery depths of despair, breathing enough oxygen for both of them, being mindful to keep its head above the water. Compassion is fearless in its willingness to be present in the pain that so often elicits humanity to its threshold. It knows its connection to Divine sustenance, and takes that knowing with it when it enters the frays of human disconnection. It leans into the dark hole of forgetfulness, connecting to its own humanness to connect the one who weeps, to the world of infinite love and wisdom. Compassion sits comfortably with the sadness and holds gently the bereaved. It opens human heart to hold the fullness of her sweet pain and transforms it into the Love that it truly is.

Compassion is the human expression of Divine Love. It is the delicious connection to humanity and sensation. It is the flesh of love that binds us to each other. It offers the visceral awareness that we are truly One.

The challenge with compassion arises when we unconsciously choose compassion over alignment with Source/Self. While compassion delivers us to the heart and soul of human connection, if we are not awake in our empathy, we may drown in a perception of another’s pain forgetting not only their intrinsic wellbeing that lies at the core of all beings, but we may be swept away in the current of another’s disconnection, risking our own stability which is often the very thing necessary to support the other in their resurfacing and realignment with their True Self. We must temper our propensity to dive into the depths of someone else’s despair when our nature leans towards compassion, and remember to keep our head above water.

I notice when I am feeling lost and unaligned that the peaceful strong energy of my mother, my husband, a friend, is much more comforting than someone who commiserates with me in my story of pain. Yet, I do not want them to pull me out of my emotions with the likes of a cheerleader on the sidelines coaxing me to joy, prematurely. I am grateful when they step into the space where I am, with their love and reverence for the process I am experiencing, honoring my pain, but not joining it. I am grateful when they sit quietly as I weep and I can feel their strong knowing that I am well, that I will feel well again, even when it seems impossible to me in that moment.

I choose to cultivate within me, this perfect blend between the compassion that dares to lean into the heart of human suffering and the mindfulness of staying awake and connected while reaching into this space of dark beauty, staying grounded in knowing the wellbeing of the other and of myself. I choose to be intimate with life, with my human nature, and I choose to be fierce in my commitment to alignment with my Divine nature. As I continue the practice of Unconditional Love, that knows love in all conditions, I am confident that my ability to remain in alignment while compassionately connecting with another who is not, will grow and blossom.

Rich Mother

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Rich mother
With very little money
Rich
Regardless of the condition of money being present.

Like unconditional love
Love,
Regardless of the conditions that are present.

A mother who taught me what it is to be rich
With or without the tangible manifestation of
Money.

She teases about going to the ‘Ocean Course’,
When I am taking care of her
When she becomes to…something…to take care of herself.
We laugh that I may put her on a budget and
That the extravagance of the plush beach resort restaurant
Will be too much for me to afford for her.

My heart smiles
And I think what a joy, pleasure and honor it would be to
Take her to her favorite place that feeds her soul
with food drenched in island sun
and an eyeful of sea-full splendor.

To be rich is to know you are worthy
Of such beauty
Such art
Regardless of how much money you have in your wallet or bank account.

To be rich is to live in a humble dwelling
and make it into a royal palace
of sacred opulent beauty
Infused with the divine
Emanating from objects reflecting consciousness
Art on every wall
Paintings by her
By me
By her grandson.

To be rich is to wake up each morning in this beautiful
Warm glow of spirit
Surrounding
Enveloping
And oozing from
you
Her
me.

To be rich is to know how to live Unconditional Love
To Love without condition
aware of
Connected to
The Divine Love
That we all are
No matter what shows up in our experience.

Opulence beyond your imagination
Living from the very core of your Soul
Where we are in communion with the realm of the Divine,
The Infinite Field of Possibility and Unconditional Love.

This is the rich soil
From which my being originates
In the dark soil of the Great Mother
and the sweet awakening spirit
Of the earth mother
Who knew her worth at a core level
Even when she was not aware of it.

So yes
My sweet matriarch, crone and wise woman
I will take you to the beautiful place that makes your heart sing
And I will breathe in the scent of salt air
and savor the bread pudding
Soaking up the sweet spirit of your soul
That has nurtured and given me permission to be
Worthy of the deep, delicious connection with my soul.

Life is so Rich
I can barely contain myself!

(The picture is of my mother with her 3 daughters)

The Magic of BACH FLOWER ESSENCES

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“Healer” oil on canvas

 

I discovered the amazing magical energies of the Flower Essences several years ago when I was looking for some relief from emotions related to patterns of thought that caused fear, worry and anxiety within me. I had been worrying about my oldest son since he was a baby. I thought maybe it was normal to worry and be fearful for his wellbeing…the mother disease. While he definitely inspired more reasons later on in his life to make me worry, I realized with my other two sons that the chronic worry I had developed with the first son, was not nearly as acute with them.

So in a quest to find a natural way to bring harmony and balance for both myself and my son, I came upon the flowers! I couldn’t believe that it took so long for Life to bring them to me. I have been painting the ‘essence’ of flowers for 20 years or more, and then they came to me in the form of miracle drops. Some people think that they are essential oils or aromatherapy, but they are more like homeopathy, that you take internally. They could be qualified as vibrational medicine, which is completely natural and safe and can be used as a complementary treatment. As I studied more about them and learned the philosophy of the creator of the essences, Dr. Edward Bach, I was hooked. I wanted to know more. So I immersed myself in the information available and invested in a kit of all the 38 remedies and started treating myself, my family and friends. Eventually, through word of mouth, more people asked for consultations and now the ‘practice’ has evolved to include an integrative healing session with the Flowers, using guidance through the Akashic Records, and Reiki. I have always loved to support people in their process of healing and awakening to their true self. Now I have a creative and beautiful way to enter into sacred space with others and offer them a way to find some relief from life’s many stressors.

The Bach Flowers are very specific in treating different aspects of disharmony that plague the human mind. The remedy that offered me relief from the chronic worry for my son was Red Chestnut. Mimulus helped me work through fears, particularly of public speaking, combined with Larch for confidence. I offered pine to my youngest son, as he was always feeling responsible for anything the went wrong, even if he had nothing to do with it. Pine is for self-blame and offers the ability to feel more self-compassion. The flowers work on the subtle vibrational body, by flooding the ‘virtuous’ qualities into the energy field of the person and gently shifting the pattern into one that is in harmony and alignment with the True Self, our Soul. The process can be gradual but profound as it was for me. Sometimes it is dramatic and immediate. The effects can be long lasting and permanent. They also can cure the chronic pattern, even though you may occasionally feel worry for instance, but in a more situational way.

So what I offer with my clients is a consultation and healing experience that helps us to determine the perfect mix of flowers to support them in shifting into an experience with life that offers more joy, ease, freedom, purpose, authenticity, peace, creativity. The possibilities for what alignment looks like for one is endless and so exciting. Like the Soul Portrait, the unfolding through Divine guidance and deep compassion, is utterly creative and magical.

Please give me a call if you are interested in experiencing this magical transformation!

~beki

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SOUL Portraits for Others

 

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Now that you know the origins of my first Soul portrait, I would like to share with you the evolution of this approach to my art and the manifestations of Soul Portraits that are painted while intentionally opening the Akashic Record of the individual for the purpose of bringing forth an image that reflects the essence of their Soul. It is so powerful to go beyond the form that we have identified with and for most of us have become attached to as an expression of who we really are.

The Soul portrait, in a sense, frees us from this limited self perception and takes us beyond our prejudices and cultural, societal conditioning. Each portrait is uniquely created and inspired by your Soul through me. I am the channel, the vehicle through which this visual communication flows. I am utterly amazed, humbled and delighted by what emerges on the canvas. I am deeply honored and aware of the sacred journey I am on as I move into this Divine Realm of the Akashic Field. Each experience with the process is unique and the sensation in my body as well as my approach to creating the piece is distinctly different with each portrait. I have no idea what will emerge. I am curious that not one has come forth as completely abstract, yet, although I suspect it may at some point.

What I do feel certain of is that what comes forth is purely Divine in nature and is specifically for the one that I am painting it for. The message that their Soul desires to offer them comes through in the perfect way in which it will speak intimately to them. It’s offering will be ongoing and layered as one lives with the portrait, as it is vibrational in nature and will take one beyond the visual, while using the tangibility of the image at the same time, to transform and awaken.

I am sharing with you some samples of the Soul Portraits that I also have published on my website with pictures of the human version of them along with a statement by them about their experience with the Soul Portrait. Included is my Soul self-portrait that I was instructed to create, while in my own Akashic Records, as my first assignment for beginning this work for others. I received this ‘idea’ and guidance by my own Masters through the Records, while in session with my wonderful and deeply tuned-in healer and mentor, Chrys Franks.

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If you think you would be interested in having your Soul painted in this profound way, please email me or give me a call for more information.
Bekicrowell@hotmail.com
843~460~4077